[DelusionsDaily]

So I have my first appointment with my therapist since her maternity leave today at 2. I don't feel like I have anything worthwhile to talk about. I'm doing really good still especially with DBT which has been my main focus since late November.

I guess I need to talk to her about the letter to x-pdoc and make a decision as to sending it or not. I mean I have written a slightly different letter asking him to consider the possibility while acquiring new and current information from my letter, T, his questions to T, then we(him and I)would sit and discuss our perspectives on the situation and make a decision TOGETHER. Just the farther I get from the termination the less I feel I need him. And I guess there's still some guilt for not doing the real work while I was with him and feel like I owe him the opportunity to really see me get well. Ugh!!! I really don't need to send this letter out of guilt! Then again even if we decide not to proceed in a patient doctor relationship maybe it will give me a bit more closure to the relationship. Hmmm??? I don't know but I will talk to her about it.

Gee isn't that just exciting!?! DBT and old P-doc. Although there are some other changes that have occurred: piano lessons, went vegan Monday, and considering dance lessons.

Well, I'll let you know how it goes after my appt.

[A Red Panda]

I think that getting to tell your T "Hey, guess what, I kept up with things and things are going really good!" is an absolutely great thing to be doing. It'll be a nice way to welcome her back to work and will be a more calm appointment to reaquaint yourselves!

[someone321]

I think that this letter to your p-doc is an important thing to discuss with your T - it is bothering you already for some weeks (or even longer) if I remember well... I hope that when you eventually sit in your T's office you will feel much better and you'll find your session meaningful - good luck

[sweepy62]

Im glad your t is back, who knows, you know how the therapy room is magical in ways, I swear i think they sprinkle magic dust before the client comes in, because sometimes you go in there thinking you only have one or two things to say, or its going to be boring, and then every other unplanned thing from the subconcious comes out lol, good luck to you and keep us posted please.

[DelusionsDaily]

God, it felt SOOO good to see T today. I will check in on DBT stuff the first few minutes of a session then we will work on my self-esteem issues through a book I bought a little while ago. Can't wait to get started. So glad I finally stopped making excuses on why I couldn't/wouldn't do it and that I finally decided to do the work and refuse to let those excuses creep in again.