I've been seeing T for almost a year. We've had discussions every so often about my attraction to and idolization of her. Today, she finally said she thinks it might not be the best idea for us to keep meeting as this is getting in the way of my healing. It just happened, and I don't even know what was said at the moment. My head is too jumbled and my heart is actually breaking. I feel like such a freak for feeling this way.
Anyway, bottom line - I'm leaving T. To say I'm devastated is the biggest understatement ever. She's been my sole support for the past almost-year and just thinking about life without her is making it hard to breathe.
I know it's the right thing to do. But it doesn't make it any easier.
Guess I just needed to let that out. Not doing so great right now. I'm supposed to start looking for a new T. Current T and I are going to keep meeting for a smooth transition.

Anyone been through this before? How did you do it?
And, thinking ahead - how did you make the transition? Has anyone met with the two Ts together to make it easier?

[HazelGirl]

Does she have referrals she can recommend? I am so sorry. I can't imagine that!

[lightcatcher]

Sorry you are going through this hippo. I haven't been through this but am sending you a hug.

[Leah123]

You are so not a freak. This is normal, and in some therapies, seen as beneficial. I am sorry it's not working out with you two. I hope your next therapist will be perfect for you, and expect your current one to smooth the transition as she said she would.

[unlockingsanity]

I'm sorry your therapist isn't willing to work through this with you. You shouldn't have to change.

Perhaps you should focus your therapist search on those who can help you work through such issues, if they were to arise again.

[~EnlightenMe~]

((((((hippo))))))),
It took me a month before I found another therapist, and it was difficult to say the least. I just called therapists, interviewed a few, and started with my current therapist, who I've seen for over a year now. I'm so sorry you have to go through termination, but I suspect that if you find the right therapist, that he/she will know better how to help you with the attachment issues. My current therapist reacts differently to my "needy" side, which has helped me become less needy over time. I still have a way to go, but it isn't as stressful as it was with my previous T, who tried to help but didn't know how. Please keep us posted on how you are doing.

[withoutthelove_]

God, I'm terrified of my T doing this exact thing to me. Sending you all my empathy..