Appointment with T tomorrow...high anxiety

I hate that I care so much what other people think of me...this was his response...

"Wow! It was like a one night stand. I thought you were really nice. But ok."

I want to defend myself - that I had no intention of a one night stand. That I AM nice.
But...reality is...who cares what he thinks of me? His opinion of me has no relevance to the rest of my life.

In all honesty, I am glad he gave up easily. He didn't REALLY know me. If he had, he would have known to be gentle to me...even if he simply listened.
He was NOT considerate. He did NOT listen. He was NOT a gentleman.
What I want is a gentleman...who is considerate and works to listen and hear me.

Yes, you're right. Good job!

Pinkbutterfly, I am so glad you were able to tell your T and that you pushed back when your T wanted to talk about something else. I hope you feel better about telling your T.
I think your suggested text is perfect. Short and to the point. you don't owe this guy any other information about why it's not healthy for you.
I hope your anxiety has improved. It's certainly understandable given this past week. Just remember to breathe.

Thanks...I see her again tomorrow...I seem to always get anxious when I know it's going to be a tough session. Even though I broke things off with this guy...I know we have to talk about some of the sexual abuse in my past because it keeps coming up...it's that thing that keeps getting me stuck