[StarLight25]

I talked to my T in the beginning of the session about what I had previously posted this week here about feeling stuck. We talked about this, and he said it really helps him to know this and he seemed to alter his approach a bit with me today.

Well I was able to talk a few details about CSA. I didn't get overwhelmed or too upset- I didn't even cry. I left feeling like I had actually accomplished something, and made progress.

As I was driving home, feeling good, listening to music, I all of a sudden got completely flooded with memories- really traumatic stuff and just became hysterical. I had to pull over and compose myself. It's been a few hours now and my anxiety is horrible. I tried to journal about some of the stuff that came to me but I can't right now. I feel like I need to talk to my T. He said I can text or call "anytime", but I feel weird doing it so I never have.

What happened here? A few hours ago I thought I had made some progress, now I feel like I took 100 steps back. I'm sad and frustrated. I never thought trauma work could be such a roller coaster ride. :-(

Sounds pretty normal actually as far as the working through trauma thing goes. I'd give your T a call and let him know what's going on.

It isn't really that you've taken steps back. It's just that those steps forward are steep and rocky and treacherous at times.

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Originally Posted by StarLight25

I He said I can text or call "anytime", but I feel weird doing it so I never have.

They don't say these things if they don't mean it.

I have left sessions thinking I felt 100% fine. Then I've stepped out of the building, or started driving the car and realized that my hands or head no longer felt attached to my body. Sometimes it seems like it takes a few seconds for the "progress" to catch up to me.