[tametc]

Yesterday morning I was getting ready to go to my therapy appt, but got a call that T wasn't feeling well and had to cancel. Since I see her on Mondays, that means I won't see her again until June 2. I asked the receptionist to put me on a cancellation call list, hoping I can get in before then. I also left T a voicemail, asking her to do a check-in call next Thursday or Friday, because next Thursday I have to go to court since ex-H is asking the judge to lower the alimony payment. I have no desire to be nasty towards my ex, because he's not worth my time nor energy, but he goes out of his way sometimes to be a jerk to me. And when it comes to money, he really gets bent out of shape.

I have been going through an anniversary date of sorts, as far as when former T's illness started becoming more serious and affecting therapy. I find myself crying more again.

I'm also facing the fact that the MS is causing me more muscle fatigue. I used to be able to plant a dozen tomato plants in an afternoon. The other day I got extremely fatigued after planting just 3 blueberry bushes. I already use a cane, but am going to start having to use a walker more. I know I will adjust to this, but with each new phase, I grieve another loss.

I'm also feeling like I'm trying to hold back a flood of internal anguish, because I haven't had a trauma T to work with. I was hoping to start with another T in May, who would do co-therapy with me and current T. But, the one who at first thought she could do it, changed her mind. There is a new T starting soon, and current T thinks she will be a good fit. I haven't met her yet, and I don't know how soon we can actually start working together.

I think all of this is made worse by the fact that I am still battling a sinus infection. Last night, the left side of my face hurt, and I had an earache that hurt tremendously. I did get to see my PCP today, and got a different antibiotic.

I got another message today from T's office, informing me that T still wasn't feeling well, and may not be able to fit me in before June 2. I'm sure that it's just a minor illness, but parts of me are afraid because of what happened with former T.

If I'm still feeling overwhelmed tomorrow, I will leave T another voicemail, and I will ask to speak with whoever is covering for her. I just need to get some of this out and get some phone support.

And in the meantime, I welcome feedback and support from PC. Thanks.

[sweepy62]

Im sorry about your ms, and your t being sick, I hope someone calls you, you can always count on us for support, do you have anyone going to court with you?
I hope your new antibiotic works, im getting a root canal tomorrow I think, I have bad tooth paing going to my ear, its better today, but after therapy I will go get it fixed. Cant live on advil.

Keep us posted.

[stopdog]

I am sorry to hear things are unsettled healthwise with the therapist and with your ms.

[leggiera]

Sorry you're not feeling well. I hope you're able to get the support you need. Please gentle with yourself.

[RTerroni]

Sorry to hear that, we are all here for you.

[someone321]

I'm sorry to hear that... I hope that your T just caught a cold and will be okay very soon - luck cannot be so bad that two your Ts would get very ill, the probability is probably lower than winning in the lottery (and for sure lower than being hit by a thunderstorm )

I hope you will know soon when you could meet this new trauma T and that the fit will be perfect

How are you today?
I also hate having sinus infection - for me very warmth bath always help but it could be just me...

[AllyIsHopeful]

I am sorry to see you are feeling down in so many different ways. I imagine the combination of everything to be tough and overwhelming. June 2nd seems far but it will be here before you know it. Try to fill the time with things that make you happy and spoil yourself. Time flies when you're having fun.

And of course we are all here for you anytime you need extra support.

I'm so sorry all these things are descending on you at once, tametc. Physical illness and exhaustion make things even more difficult. How come you can't see your T on Monday next week?
Thinking of you.

sending you as many safe comforting gentle caring as you need please take good care of you ♥

Tamtec - I'm hoping you get to feeling better real soon. Your love for the outdoors and your garden patch always puts a smile on my face.

[Bill3]

((((((tametc))))))

With everything that is going on, I do hope that you can get extra support and specifically can speak to a covering T if you still want to. How are you doing today?

***

How come you can't see your T on Monday next week?

Next Monday is Memorial Day here, a national holiday.

It sucks when public holidays interfere with T days.

[peaches100]

Tametc,

Wow, you really do have a lot of stressful things going on at one time! No wonder you are feeling overwhelmed! Maybe your t will still get a cancellation opening before June 2. Either way, know that we are here at PC to support and encourage you. While you are in this difficult place, use whatever healthy coping skills work best for you. What activities can you engage in that would help relax your mind and heart? You're going to get through the next few difficult days. We're with you in spirit.

[BrokenGirl22]

I hope you're feeling better soon.

[tametc]

Originally Posted by Bill3

((((((tametc))))))

With everything that is going on, I do hope that you can get extra support and specifically can speak to a covering T if you still want to. How are you doing today?

***

Next Monday is Memorial Day here, a national holiday.

I am feeling a little better, mostly because the new antibiotic is helping me to sleep more. I think it will help a lot when I get over this stupid sinus infection. I am going to call T's office tomorrow and see if I can speak with her or the person who is covering for her. I know it will help me to feel more settled, and I can benefit more from my self-care that way.

[tametc]

Thanks to all of you for your support and kind words. I know I can count on all of you.

I just thought of another thing to add to my self-care arsenal. I am going to cook some comfort foods. I recently bought a digital pressure cooker, which also works as a rice cooker, slow cooker, and lots of other wondrous things. I used it last night to cook brown basmati rice, and it only took 15 minutes. There is a recipe for old-fashioned rice pudding in the user's manual, and that sounds simple to do, plus I already have Arborio rice. It's less painful on my throat and ear to eat soft foods right now, so I'm going to baby myself.