[NOS-NOS]

I notice with my new T we haven't really delved into my past much. I'm not sure if I should even bring it up since I'm seemingly in a relatively good place right now. I can't help but think dredging up old memories or even analyzing more recent occurrences could lead to a potentially volatile situation...like exploring the unknown with only the purpose of furthering understanding of myself and maybe shining some light on recent episodes..but will that understanding come at a price, at shattering the equilibrium and peace I had come to know only in days of late? One thing I really hated about my episode was that I was constantly in a state of flux, not like multiple personalities but like my perceptions and interpretations of my life's events and my own experiences changed nearly every day... like I didn't have solid ground to stand on. And I was constantly trying to re-invent myself and my persona.

Anyways, opinions: can knowing too much about yourself cause more harm than good? (with regards to stability of life and mind). From my perspective I have a lot to lose and maybe I think ignorance can be bliss, so long as the end result of non-ignorance doesn't greatly outweigh the present situation. Sorry if none of this makes any sense, I think I forgot to take my meds last night..leading to mental diarrhea in the form of this post

[Leah123]

I'd say that self-knowledge is invaluable and does require being able to talk through your past, but that this doesn't have to happen immediately or all at once.

If you struggle with staying stable, I would work hard on current-day, long-term stability, and when you're more comfortable with being able to maintain it, at least, enough to function, then later you can consider working through past history.

Because knowing about yourself doesn't cause more harm than good, but processing trauma is destabilizing and if you're not ready, it can hurt excessively.

[stopdog]

Yes - it can have quite a cost I would imagine.

[Perna]

One does not get something for nothing. All growth has growing pains of some sort. It depends on what one wants and wants to pay for as to whether it is worth it or not.