[tinyrabbit]

My T is on holiday next week, and I was 20 minutes late to my last session. I always leave in plenty of time, but I waited 35 minutes for a bus (there should have been 3-4 in that time) and then got stuck in stationery traffic. I texted my T and he said we could start the session by phone or text if I wanted. I'd have liked to phone but the bus was crowded and my reception sucked so is was texting him and not getting his replies. Then I got stuck in a queue at the ATM and texted him to say so.

By the time I arrived at my session I was crying my heart out. 20 minutes of my session, gone. My T sat next to me on the floor, put his arms around me and hugged me. Then he said we could get back some of the lost time, we could go for 10 minutes extra so I'd only lose 10 minutes. After I left the session, I got some texts from him that hadn't arrived before, including one saying: "Leave it - pay next time," after I said about the ATM queue.

At the time I was so upset that I ruined my session. But now, looking back on it, I'm kind of glad I was late. I think this is the first time I've ever been upset and run crying to an adult (as it were) for comfort. I would not have expected that in childhood, would not have approached the adults in my life for comfort. Early on in our relationship, I was upset and my now-husband tried to hug me and I pushed him away.

It felt good to cry about something I had lost and to have that matter, to me shown that I mattered. That's not supposed to be a novelty I don't think, but it is to me. And it's easier to cry about something trivial than about the real losses.

[stopdog]

I am glad it worked out well.

[Raging Quiet]

This is a really poignant post.

[UnderRugSwept]

(((tinyrabbit))),

This is really sweet...I teared up (which I hardly ever do) so I guess I will have to examine my own reaction further.

I think you have a really great T from what you have posted. I also think you should also give yourself plenty of credit for being able to let yourself lean on him when you needed him...it's not very easy to do that and it can be really scary depending on someone else, for sure. (I personally am not very good at it.)

Also in the future hopefully you can hold on to the idea that he will be there for you in this way when you need him...esp. when he returns from holiday.

[Asiablue]

I was 15 mins late for my session 2 weeks ago due to traffic- first time ever! And I arrived enraged! It's a really horrible feeling. I'm so glad your wonderful T was able to help you thru it and that you even got more time at the end.

[tinyrabbit]

Thanks for all the replies and hugs. Asia, I'm so sorry you also lost some of your session - it's so unfair when it happens.