[DelusionsDaily]

Well, I found out yesterday that grandma will probly need PT till the end of June. I think it's hitting now that I might be dealing with a slight depression. I eat very little..just not hungry. Lack motivation to get out of bed much less anything else. My sleep is all outta whack. Haven't done therapy "homework" in 2 weeks...ie: diary card for DBT. Not dealing well at all with grandma not being home. As ornery and angry as she gets sometimes when I do what I gotta do...I MISS her not being at home. She gives me purpose when she is here and I NEED that. My mom says I need to find that outside grandma too but I don't know how and am scared to.

[growlycat]

Ever volunteer for "meals on wheels"? Maybe not now, while you are in the middle of all this, but it is a nice way to "adopt a senior".

[sweepy62]

Sorry to hear that, hopefully pt will do her good. You need to take care of yourself , I don't think your grandma wants you getting sick . You want to be well for when she gets home.

I know it's emotionally nerve wreaking for you.

I'm going through stuff as well, I got hospice coming to the house on Monday, she doesn't want them , she is depressed, and her new thing now is wanting me to say that I have a bad heart as well.

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[ScarletPimpernel]

Even though the goal is to take care of ourselves for ourselves, we still sometimes need to find external motivation.

If your grandma is a motivator for you, she still can be even if she's not physically there. Do the things you need to do for her, to prove to yourself and her that she is important to you. Don't worry about doing everything "right". Just set a goal and try to complete it. When that's complete, repeat. The goals can be as simple as taking a shower or eating a healthy meal.

I use multiple things for my motivation; mostly my dogs and my T and my Pdoc. My 8 yr old dog has atypical cushings, hypothyroidism, MRSA, and severe allergies if I don't take care of her, who will? And my T and Pdoc are motivators because I feel like if I don't try then I'm wasting their time and effort.

I hope your grandma gets better. I also hope that you hang in there.