[GingerbreadWoman]

Does anyone else experience this? The only time I actually feel like going to therapy is when I do not have an appointment. On the day of an appointment, I usually feel like "Ugh. I do not even have the energy to go drive there and pretend to be in the mood to talk about myself for an hour. I'd really rather not."

I guess I am like this with a lot of things, though. I'm so bored until I actually have something to do. Then I want nothing but to lay on the floor and do nothing!

[GingerbreadWoman]

Like now, actually! I have NOTHING to do, and I want a therapy appointment or something to relieve my boredom. I think I'm going to drive to the mall and walk around for a little while.

[kororain]

Not lazy per se, but more like... avoidant. There are maybe two days in a two week time period where I'm actually like, "Yeah!! Let's talk about this **** and hammer out some life changes, yo!"

The rest of the time I spend thinking of all the reasons I shouldn't trust, don't actually need to go, should cancel, don't deserve to go, and so on.

[The_little_didgee]

Sometimes I get like this. When I do it is because I have no topics to discuss. I always want to go when I have a revelation to share or need to discuss my illness.

[Bells129]

Yes, I get this every time I have to see her. I just cannot be bothered to do the work we have to do, it's so much effort and it's really tiring.

[guilloche]

I do... but it's more like what Kororain said. It's not lazy... for me it's more like... when my therapist is far away (i.e. no appointment for another week!) - I feel safer and more comfortable, so I think of LOTS of things that I want to talk to him about. It feels good, and exciting, and there's literally TOO MUCH to talk about (more than can fit in an hour).

But, as the actual day comes closer... I really start wanting to cancel, run away, hide, catch pneumonia - anything to get out of it . And when I'm in the waiting room... I bring a notebook to write (to make myself less stressed) and pretty much always what I write is... "OMG why did I come back? I want to leave! Get me out of here!"

[looking4polaris]

Originally Posted by GingerbreadWoman

Does anyone else experience this? The only time I actually feel like going to therapy is when I do not have an appointment. On the day of an appointment, I usually feel like "Ugh. I do not even have the energy to go drive there and pretend to be in the mood to talk about myself for an hour. I'd really rather not."

I guess I am like this with a lot of things, though. I'm so bored until I actually have something to do. Then I want nothing but to lay on the floor and do nothing!

Yes, but I suppose I think of it in reverse. As soon as I'm committed to doing something, I don't want to do it anymore (including therapy.)

[Daeva]

I think I'm the odd one out, I love seeing my T and going there, how long have you seen your T? We're like old friends.