I hate you

I think I am in this place now....

This is really interesting. I've been thinking about part of my most recent talk with T (this past friday). I told her that i had been angry with her because of the no professional will thing (which she has since taken care of, thankfully!). and then went into this spiral of negative judgments about myself and all this guilt. bizarre. after the fact, after having done more work around it yesterday, I think I sorta even see what she did with all of that. While she did ask where all the judging was coming from, who's voice was it, etc she didn't try to comfort me, or tell me anything of what I was feeling was either right or wrong, she just listened and let me feel it with the observation about me being "in the soup". And I think that was really important for her to handle it that way - because if she had said anything else, whether trying to comfort, or whatever, it would have felt like more judgment to me and I was doing enough of that myself. omg she is so attuned to me. at first seriously i wondered that's all you have to say? "You're in the soup"? Really T? But it was exactly what I needed her to do. Simply acknowledge my struggle. It was perfect. I am so incredibly blessed in the t department.