Don't like my new pdoc

I've seen her a few times. I tried to give her a chance. There's no reason I shouldn't like her. But I really really don't. She's nice, she's not annoying, and she hasn't done anything wrong. But I just don't trust her. And there's no reason for me to distrust her. She has a lot of experience. She's educated. Why do I feel this way?

I don't want to go to my next appointment. I want to skip it. But in reality, I wouldn't skip it. The anxiety from missing the obligation would be unbearable. I could cancel though. But I don't know if I have enough of the medication. I want to stop taking the medication just so I don't have to see her anymore. I'm afraid I'm going to get angry during the appointment. I don't know what to do.

I'm sorry you are having so much trouble with wanting to see her. Could it be a vulnerability thing? Would it help to talk to her about it?

This definitely sounds like a problem that you need to either talk to her about, or deal with yourself. It doesn't sound like she is doing anything to cause these feelings, so they will still be there if you try to go to a different Pdoc.

To me, this sounds a lot like the way I was feeling with my previous therapist. She was competent, experienced, and nice, but there was no connection and I never trusted her fully (not in the sense that I thought she would not do her job, but in the sense that I could not tell her things.) Some of that was my own stuff, some of it was her inability to understand me, but regardless of the reason there was simply no connection. With my current T, things were different from the firat time I saw him.

My point here is that sometimes it simply doesn't work with a particular provider. It is a personal chemistry thing which does not mean that either party is in the wrong. And in those cases, the best thing to do is to change pdocs, if possible.

Not necessarily. I liked the one before her. There's just something about her that rubs me the wrong way, probably similar to what Mastodon said.

I've thought about switching, but I don't think I could bring myself to initiate it. And if I'm only going to her for medication, I don't really need to have a good relationship with her. ...Except that having to see her makes me want to stop the medication. Sigh. I don't know what I'll do.