Feeling crushed

That's good that you plan to talk with your T about it. Have you been able to talk with her about the lack of trust related to the incident?

I have brought it up in general terms. I said after this, I don't think I can trust mental health professionals. Her response was a facial expression that could be best compared to that moment when you find out your dog peed in the house and you call him out on it. Sorry but that really is the best way. I have mentioned it again and received the same response. I think how I am going to approach this is by asking how she thinks therapy is going, how much longer she thinks I should be in therapy for, what goals of mine are most practical for therapy and what am I best doing on my own. I have asked her if she had any therapy plan in mind, and she looked at me like I had just asked her to cure cancer. At the time, I was ok with this because I felt like I was making progress and she was very helpful but now she has not really been that helpful. No homework, no suggestions to help when I am depressed and the last two sessions she has been late, and with the last session she was late and ended early. Maybe she wants me to leave...I am curious to see if she is late this week. If she is more than five minutes late I will leave. I am her first appt. really no excuse.

I don't know if you will see this, but are you feeling any better now that you have some distance from the situation? Have you reached out to some of your friends?