CSA triggers

***CSA TRIGGER***

Right now with my work I am force to deal with a registered child sex offender. He has also touched the breasts of staff members (not mind thankfully). There are so many parts of his story that just sets me off. One being that one of his child victims was a family member of his girlfriend. His girlfriend chooses to stay in the relationship with him. I am so nervous about going back to work (I was out sick friday and have the weekends and Mondays off). I had an appointment with T this morning and we talked about this a lot. I felt like I should suck it up and put up my wall rather than allow it to get to me. T on the other hand thinks tomorrow will be extremely difficult for me and that I should email her throughout the day if I need to and she will help me through. However, I almost wish she had told me to put my wall up and disassociate from the whole thing. I am not sure why but sometimes her compassion is opposite what I think I need.

BTW...I know I should get a new job as hubby tells me all the time it is too much for me. However, I love my job and while I sometimes have to deal with people that are difficult for me I can get through it and the good outweigh the bad.

I too have found it harder to have support through trying times than just dissociate, isolate or put up walls. However, I think it's healthier not to, so while I am more open to my discomfort which is unpleasant, I'm also processing it. That prevents it from being expressed in unhealthy ways.

Sorry work is so uncomfortable right now.

Is there a way to talk to your boss and explain that it is very difficult for you and ask if someone else can step in to handle this particular person?

My best friend loved her job but was being sexually harassed about her breasts by the owner.
She quit and it was the best thing she ever did.

I have withdrawn from one case because I could not cope with it. It just hit too close to home. I didn't change my profession or anything; I just got out of that particular case.

While I do not have to be directly involved with him he still is on the unit for which I have to be out on the unit where he is.