[dark_sweetie]

Do your feelings about the session change after you get home from the session? Like things you thought nothing of in person will seem really meaningful and bug you all week for example.

I find myself always geting there and going "oh, T is just my T, just a normal person, no weirdness and nbd." But then I get home and suddenly I wonder about things she said and did... focusing on certain topics, insisting on sort of random things, questions she asked and why she might have asked them, or what feels like pushing/pulling.

Anyone else?

[Soccer mom]

YYEESSSS!! I totally analyze the session. I may leave feeling fine and then one little thing upsets me. THAT's one thing that bugs me about the time between sessions because then I have to wait to ask her or clarify.

[ScarletPimpernel]

Same. I don't fully process what was said in session. So I go home and review everything that was said. I can find one word or one sentence that will bug me for the rest of the week.

This week, my T said something about my sui thoughts being comforting to me. I get why she said it, but it pisses me off. Because the underlying meaning is that I am choosing to have the thoughts...No I'm NOT! I know my T knows I don't want them...but I'm still dwelling on that one comment. But in session, it didn't even bother me.

[dark_sweetie]

Originally Posted by Soccer mom

YYEESSSS!! I totally analyze the session. I may leave feeling fine and then one little thing upsets me. THAT's one thing that bugs me about the time between sessions because then I have to wait to ask her or clarify.

Aughhh ikr!

Sometimes I think I'm being duped by some kind of practiced therapy doublespeak. Like she may have learned how to say things in a way that won't hurt clients but they stand out to me and get me so freakin' curious as to what she actually meant and why. Also they end up coming off as either almost passive aggressive or as if she just blurted something out, but it's like, did she? Did she really?

[dark_sweetie]

Originally Posted by ScarletPimpernel

Same. I don't fully process what was said in session. So I go home and review everything that was said. I can find one word or one sentence that will bug me for the rest of the week.

This week, my T said something about my sui thoughts being comforting to me. I get why she said it, but it pisses me off. Because the underlying meaning is that I am choosing to have the thoughts...No I'm NOT! I know my T knows I don't want them...but I'm still dwelling on that one comment. But in session, it didn't even bother me.

Ahh, yeah, I hate things that reveal she thinks/worries about smth with me that is the way wrong emphasis.

A yes from me too. I feel the same about the feeling of almost surprise when I return to see her and she is so normal and ordinary, but in my mind she becomes something else in between sessions, the thoughts I had in respect of this other person seem a bit out of place when I am back with her in the flesh. Also I may feel fine when I walk out the door but as the day goes on I can develop emotion about what was said, also after sleeping on it I can feel different.

[ThisWayOut]

Yeah, I do that, though not always consciously. I'll be bopping along and then something hits me and I feel totally different about session. Mostly it's because I read anger or negativity into her when there was none.

[StillIRise]

Originally Posted by Brown Owl

A yes from me too. I feel the same about the feeling of almost surprise when I return to see her and she is so normal and ordinary, but in my mind she becomes something else in between sessions, the thoughts I had in respect of this other person seem a bit out of place when I am back with her in the flesh. Also I may feel fine when I walk out the door but as the day goes on I can develop emotion about what was said, also after sleeping on it I can feel different.

This is totally how I experience it too! It's pretty bizarre.

I do that too. I take notes during our talks, but then after we get off the phone I start writing about it. Later in the day, I'll write more about it. Sometimes the day after too. Yeah, I analyze them to pieces sometimes. I will keep doing it though, because I keep a running "therapy journal" and have a box full of spiral notebooks that cover the past 3 years. I go back and read through them from time to time and it's good to see my progress over the years in the notebooks. I sound so young in the first one! lol