[sweepy62]

If you have had morbid or a morbid thought, would you tell your? A thought you wouldn't carry out, but has been intense.

Not irrational , or self harm. My h got me so pissed , he verbally hurt me, and this thought came to mind, I could have easily carried it , but then I have been so paranoid lately that , i thought he might catch me.

I know t

[Victoria'smom]

Yes, I told T today. His thing was the difference between thoughts and planing with intent. He did have to ask if I do have plans or intent and I was honest (I have no intent but planing can happen really fast). I did go over my crisis/safety plan and sign it and ways to calm me. I was told to call if anything and I have an appointment in 2.5 wks.

Of course... Morbid thoughts are just anger...

[ThisWayOut]

It's a conversation we have from time to time. I have really morbid thoughts white often, but like Miguel's Mom said, there's a distinction between thought and intent.

[Tangerine87]

I only have morbid thoughts about myself and I have learned never to discuss methods with T.

[sweepy62]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

Yes, I told T today. His thing was the difference between thoughts and planing with intent. He did have to ask if I do have plans or intent and I was honest (I have no intent but planing can happen really fast). I did go over my crisis/safety plan and sign it and ways to calm me. I was told to call if anything and I have an appointment in 2.5 wks.

Did he ask you what the thought was?

[sweepy62]

Originally Posted by ThisWayOut

It's a conversation we have from time to time. I have really morbid thoughts white often, but like Miguel's Mom said, there's a distinction between thought and intent.

I don't have plans to do it , at that moment, I strongly thought about doing it, but did not, I was just angry.

[sweepy62]

I would like to tell her, I had the thought, but did not have a plan, as it just popped in my head . Knowing her she will ask what the thought was and I don't think it's relevant .

[unaluna]

I think my t just wanted to make sure i wasnt actually going to DO anything, but it did express my true frustration, which i think was unusual, and therefore significant.

[sweepy62]

If I knew she wouldn't make a big deal over it, I would just say it and process it and that's it.

[ThisWayOut]

I think it might be a good idea to process it anyway. you can preface it by telling her you would like to talk about something that disturbed you (or however it made you feel), but that you would like for her to be able to talk about it with you instead of react to the content. Generally T's will then do a risk assessment (your level of intent at the time of the incident, your level of intent in the current moment, any plan you may have, how likely you are to be able to go through with the plan, etc).
When I talk to my T about morbid thoguhts, she reminds me that we need to asses my level of risk, and that we will work together to figure things out if I'm high risk in the moment. We established a while ago that I have lots of morbid thoughts, there's lots of planning, plenty of access, but not always a level of intent that would concern her. I've also agreed to always contact *someone* first, and if I felt like I was slipping past that point, I would at least make it to the next appointment with her and we would go from there (I have this intense need for closure with everything, so I know I would at least hold out to talk to her one more time). This agreement really helps free me up to voice the intensity of my distress in any way that I can, especially around the ickier past abuse stuff.

[sweepy62]

Originally Posted by ThisWayOut

I think it might be a good idea to process it anyway. you can preface it by telling her you would like to talk about something that disturbed you (or however it made you feel), but that you would like for her to be able to talk about it with you instead of react to the content. Generally T's will then do a risk assessment (your level of intent at the time of the incident, your level of intent in the current moment, any plan you may have, how likely you are to be able to go through with the plan, etc).
When I talk to my T about morbid thoguhts, she reminds me that we need to asses my level of risk, and that we will work together to figure things out if I'm high risk in the moment. We established a while ago that I have lots of morbid thoughts, there's lots of planning, plenty of access, but not always a level of intent that would concern her. I've also agreed to always contact *someone* first, and if I felt like I was slipping past that point, I would at least make it to the next appointment with her and we would go from there (I have this intense need for closure with everything, so I know I would at least hold out to talk to her one more time). This agreement really helps free me up to voice the intensity of my distress in any way that I can, especially around the ickier past abuse stuff.

Thanks I will keep that in mind, it's not a matter of harming anyone physically , I think maybe emotionally. It's so confusing to me , at the moment.