[amayastar]

Past Therapist) A little history: I push people away I had this past therapist for 2 years when this conversation. We were actually getting to a decent point in therapy but I was scared and wanted to run away.Me- I don't think this is going to work I think I need another therapist. I just don't think this is working.T-Not going to happen, I'm not giving up on you, I care about you and I know you want to push me away but I'm not qutting on you. It's your choice if you want to leave but is that what you really want?Me-umm.(I was about in tears.) I need to use the bathroom ..T-Sure but if you do what I think your going to do I want to see afterwards. Or you can push through the emotion, Feel the emotion and get past it. It's ok to cry.Me-(fixing to run out of office my chest is tight I'm about to loes it, I need to Si.)T-Come on your stronger than that, you can do this Push through it.Me-I can't can't do this, starts to cry attempts to open door.T- Comes next to me puts one hand on door says" I'm here for you lets get through this".Me-I sit on floor start crying hard now saying "I hate you I hate you"T-sits right next to me says" It's ok let it out your safe now it's ok.Me-Crying harder start to dig at my arm.T-says" Not happening kiddo.. your safe now" grabs my hand and wraps her arms around me.Me-cries and cries"actually hugs backT-Ten minutes later says" Well I told you, you could do it..Me-finally stoped crying. " I don't want another therapist I'm just scared."T-I know.. I care about you and we will get though this.Me-I Will try to push you away even though deep down I want you as my therapist. I might be mean.T- I can handle it and like I said I'm not giving up so push all you want.Me-okay.

T= therapist
Me= me lol.

[RedSun]

Wow.
I've never had an experience like that, but it sounds like you have an amazing t. Keep strong, you're both doing great work!

[Freewilled]

That's awesome. You have a very good T

[granite1]

when I was younger and in a residential treatment . yes there was a lot of hold therapy .

[scallion5]

can't say that i have

as i read that, i thought you are super lucky for that kind of moment - sounds really supportive

how did it feel to you? how are you feeling afterwards?

Yes, i have had that happen also.

[stopdog]

It sounds really horrible to me, but from reading other responses, it sounds like some think it was good. Did you find it useful?

[Ad Intra]

Wow that was amazing. No, this has never happened to me. Old T probably would have not stopped me from leaving, which most do.

[amayastar]

It helped me a lot it felt great but was really scary at the same time.

[lunatic soul]

I didnt understand why were you feeling that bad but I agree with Stopdog that it sounds horrible. Maybe it sounds horrible for me because it reminds me of my stupit behavior (I mean SI in bathroom after session).
Your T was really patient and kind, I would be scared if I were a T and my client acted like this.
My T was mad when I acted like this and I wish I could turn back the time and wouldnt act that miserable. My T saved my life when I tried to kill myself but anyway its horrible to remember this.

[stopdog]

Originally Posted by lunatic soul

I didnt understand why were you feeling that bad but I agree with Stopdog that it sounds horrible. Maybe it sounds horrible for me because it reminds me of my stupit behavior (I mean SI in bathroom after session).
Your T was really patient and kind, I would be scared if I were a T and my client acted like this.

The part that sounds horrible to me is what the therapist did. It does not sound patient and kind. It sounds horrible.

[JaneTennison1]

For you, stopdog, I can't imagine a t doing anything worse but for the OP I am happy because what happened seems like it gave strength to the bond they have and may be very healing.

[stopdog]

Originally Posted by JaneTennison1

For you, stopdog, I can't imagine a t doing anything worse but for the OP I am happy because what happened seems like it gave strength to the bond they have and may be very healing.

Indeed - I am glad the OP found it useful.

[brokenwarrior]

I did that for the first time last week, however I was having a session with a family member and was asked to leave. I was really hurt by that and ended up SH while I waited for the session to be over. Not the best idea because not I feel the need to bring my razor with me. I don't know how T would react if they found out I did that. Idk if I could ever tell them.