[brokenwarrior]

I feel like I should just quit therapy and everything that goes along with it. Sure, I go every week to see my T and yes it feels good having someone tell me my feelings are valid and I'm not crazy like I believe I am. But like I leave every time feeling so bad. A few times I've left in crisis.

At least three times a day I get to the point where I am not safe. Like now. I feel crazy during this time. My thoughts are all over the place. I wouldn't call it mania but I just get so triggered and it leads to SH or my ED and sometimes other things that I'm just to embarrassed to say.

I just want this all to stop. I feel like such a burden to my mom because now she has to worry about if her daughter is going to kill herself. I feel like a burden to my T because I'm not getting better. I barely am able to talk to her and I fight to let her in. The truth is, I don't feel like I will ever get better.

I feel like therapy is just playing with my emotions. Like here is someone who cares about me, listens to me, worries, etc... but only for an hour a week but during that hour I have to talk about my feelings and that just makes me unstable. Then the hour is up and I'm on my own and I have to burry those feelings again in order to stay alive yet another pointless week.

I know it is probably not a good idea and believe it or not I would miss my T but it's really starting to become super hard to continue to live.

That is why we come to this website so we can continue talking about our problems and getting advises and support from others plus seeing your T . It all works in a circle

[HazelGirl]

Hang in there! Things can get better!

[brokenwarrior]

Originally Posted by Nature1968

That is why we come to this website so we can continue talking about our problems and getting advises and support from others plus seeing your T . It all works in a circle

Hahaha yeah I guess you're right. I feel like I'm on this search for some peace I can't find. Thanks guys. I just don't know if I will continue.