[sweepy62]

(Possible trigger) last session we started discussing the few trigger c s a words I managed to write down, for pre exposure therapy and i listened to her say one of the words . We talked about it and processed it some.
She said we would keep discussing it because it's repetative . Anyway since then I feel so vulnerable , I secretly cry over anything, these emotions I can't explain just come up.

I mean, I start to cry because I ran out of a cigarette , or I ran out of milk for my cigarette, then , I stop crying and I feel this rage. Then I calm down.

I feel like an idiot. I never cry OMG , this is one emotion I had under control. I now have to hide and cry. 2 days ago while driving with h to my friends dads house who has dementia kicking in and is an alcoholic, and is drinking again, I had a panic attack.

My h just yelled at me to drink water and it would go away , I couldn't talk. I was trying to catch my breath, that produced stomach cramps, what a mess.

I don't know, panic attack, crying, anger what the hell? I don't see t till Wednesday .

[JaneC]

Sorry things are so hard sweepy, you have been working so incredibly hard in therapy lately which is amazing! I hate all of the sudden emotions that come up sometimes too.

What do you do, or could you do, to feel safer right now? Do you have any breathing techniques that help? What strategies have you worked on that work?

I hope it eases up a bit and feel a little more balanced soon.

Kind