[Yearning0723]

T and I had a good session. I think I'm going to ask her for another session on Wednesday. She said she understood a lot of the bad things I did when I was younger, like stealing money from my father or lying or manipulating. She told me she didn't think I was a bad person because she understood that it was just me trying to get my needs met. She thinks I don't give myself enough credit re. being a good person who is trying my best.

Sometimes I feel like I just don't belong in this world.

[jelly-bean]

I am glad that your session was a good one today. It sounds like you might be making some progress. I hope that you get the second session if you want it.

[Bill3]

What is making you miserable right now?

My daughter has stolen money from me, she is wonderful and fantastic and I love her dearly, none of this is diminished by her stealing. I think it is quite common, and not an indicator at all that someone is bad, just a thing that kids do. A close friend told me that she stole money from her mom when she was a child.

[Soccer mom]

You said it was when you were younger. We've all made mistakes and mature as we get older. Try not to be so hard on yourself and feel the acceptance from your T.

[HazelGirl]

My T said recently to me that 99% of kids steal.

[Yearning0723]

Originally Posted by HazelGirl

My T said recently to me that 99% of kids steal.

I know...and T understood why I was doing it (looking for attention, trying to get other needs met, trying to create a sense of safety for myself because stockpile of money = safety to me when I was little). But I just couldn't help thinking that if she was my father's T instead of mine, she would have a lot more sympathy for his side of the story. And this was only a few years ago too that I was fifteen or sixteen and was doing this...it's not like it was five decades ago or something...and I think the real thing is that I'm not sure that I wouldn't do it again if I was given the opportunity. With my father - I never stole anything from anyone else, but I always figured he wouldn't miss it (often he didn't) and I guess my biggest issues around that stuff was with him. But I don't know if I had the opportunity if I might act in the same way again.

T says I'm not giving myself enough credit, but I just don't know.