Last sessions.

Today was my last session till after new year.
Even Mondays session (I go 2x w weekly) felt like a waste of time for me.
So, today talking about it with T, she asked if I felt that way because I didn't want to get into anything?
I said, I guess, it would be silly to leave myself in a bad place before the break.
I said how I find it uncomfortable just 'hanging' with T.
T said, like free time at sch? She asked if I use to like free time at sch?
I said, nope. T said, I knew that would be your answer. I asked why? She said, well because of all the free floating adrenalin you have, you find it easier to expel that into organised, structured activities.
I did, yep, I operate better under pressure, as much as I hate that.
So, today really wasnt a waste. Just taking about that was informative for me.

Sometimes I think the informative sessions are as helpful as the others. Sometimes when I get those "Aha" moments they are worth there weight in gold. I'm glad you found it helpful.

I'm like you. I wouldn't want to get into something heavy and then have a long break between sessions. I think it would leave me too anxious.

Interesting. I never took a "study hall" - free period - in high school. I always started school early to get an extra class in, and in my senior year, i even took two classes during the same hour.

I think it's the result of being in constant fight or flight or mode my entire life.