[Ad Intra]

My old-T quit her job three months ago and it still hurts a lot. I'm not sure if it's healthy for me to still have sadness and anger from it.
Problem is that I refuse, when hell freezes over, to go back to therapy. I've been in therapy 3x and I've never had a real termination.
When I was 16 my dad pulled me out of therapy because he didn't like my T (there was no notice that I would be quitting).
When I was 17 I quit therapy because the therapist because he was unethical (forced me talk about things I didn't want to and insinuated that all I was going to do in college was have oral sex; I only saw him twice)
And again a couple months ago when my old-T walked in and said she was leaving (there was no notice).
I'm tired of getting hurt by therapists.

Yeah... I can relate to this. I've seen a number of T's in the past. None of 'em were worth the time or the expense. I don't see one anymore...

[Ididitmyway]

I feel for you I can relate too..I wouldn't call any of my therapy terminations healthy or therapeutic. The ideal terminations that are described in psychotherapy textbooks only exist in those textbooks, I figured..

[angelicgoldfish05]

Intra, sorry you had to go through this. I understand but for me it has been much longer than 3 months. There is no correct amount of time to grieve over our losses. It is very individualized and you could take all the time you need.

I too thought I'd never go back to therapy. But I need it. It helps me. I've learned not to open my heart to the therapist in a way so as to get attached to her so I don't get hurt. It sucks to leave this emotion out for me because it truly feels like I'm using someone (taking and taking and not giving anything back). But therapy is not a place for the therapist to get their emotional needs met. I pay them to do a job, and with their expertise, they help me keep living my life. The therapist is a tool I benefit from having in my life.

I wish you luck in your healing and grief work.