what do u do

what do u do
when u really do not want to go to therapy
and its more than just lack of motivation
its embarresment
and shame
and fear
of everything thats happened
and i know yes its not my fault and i dealt with it the only way i knew how

but what do i do when i just want to give up
when im giving up on T and the whole idea of trying to get better
when i just dont think its possible
when i just dont see a future
when i know that i will always remember it all
how am i meant to live with that

Trudge...Trudge..... You go to therapy and share what you have just shared. Open your heart and your soul and spill it out. It just may help.

i think you be really very gentle with yourself. it might help to share what you have just shared (you could print out your post).

sometimes it can help to take things really slowly and gently. takes some time to build up trust that it is safe to share some of those thoughts and feelings with t.

you go anyway
even if you don't want to
and your stomach churns
and your feet feel like lead
and your head throbs
and your heart aches

you go anyway
because you deserve
to be cared for
and listened to
and validated
and loved

you put one foot in front of the other
you do the next right thing
and you go
because you have a beautiful core
that is shining and trying
to mend your broken heart

And you will heal in time
So you go

(((((((((((( bronee ))))))))))))))

We have to do the therapy, what is the alternative?

And T will understand completely.