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#126
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I figured I was just obsessing.... I don't think this is the last she's heard about this topic, but I figured I'd give it a break....since she seemed to be getting frustrated anyway, and see if giving it a break made me feel better about it. S'pose I just need to let it go....but figured I wouldn't know unless I tried. My feelings haven't changed yet....but I've only had 2-3 sessions since we quit talking about it.
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#127
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When this type of "impasse " occurred with my therapist, I HAD to beat the dead horse! It's my therapy, my topic, no matter how frustrating for her. I would demand that the time and toptic were mine- no matter what. Eventually, we would work through it.
Now you guys have an even bigger problem than withdrawal of touch. The problem that you now have to filter your words because she can't handle them, or doesn't want to , or whatever. That's a deal breaker for me. I think you're doing the right thing by just seeing how things feel for a few sessions. But surely your patience will run out soon and you'll need to discuss it again. How can you not????
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#128
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It never bothers me to frustrate the therapist. I figure it is good for them to know how it feels for me to deal with them. I even told the woman that once when she said she was feeling frustrated - I said "good because now you know how I feel every time I have an appointment with you"
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#129
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GavinandNikki and stopdog...thank you. You're right....this topic isn't finished yet.... and stopdog, I loved your reply!!
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#130
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I'm bumping this up for BoulderOnMyShoulder. 7 months later, it still hurts. But therapy, somehow, has managed to continue.
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#131
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Talking to someone made me go back and re-read this thread from over a year ago. This is still heavy on my heart, and I am still with her. most of you who would read this know what's happened since. I am now seeing THREE T's. My plan was to choose one, that just hasn't happened yet. T1 is psychodynamic, T2 is CBT and T3 is SE. I think T3 will be my winner, although I like T2 and have found her helpful...but I really only want to see one T.
So I made a step in the right direction last week by telling T1 I'm considering going down to once a week (I have been seeing her twice a week, for nearly the entire two years I've been seeing her) Reading this thread again kinda helped me feel a little validated, because I have been very hard on myself for a long time due to the fact that I can't seem to "move past this." I love this T. But after this rupture, I do not find her helpful anymore, so I know it's in my best interest to leave. Attachment sucks.... but maybe leaving will be easier now that I have a great connection with T3. She is very kind and loving, and I don't have to question that, I feel it in my heart. So starting with her, I think, will really help me move on from T1. I will forever miss her. Beginning the week of June 13th, I start seeing T3 twice a week instead of once, so my plan is to cut back on T1, if not possibly quit all together. This is not easy....but I know what's in my best interest better than she or anyone else. And what T1 thought was in my best interest ended up being VERY harmful for me. T2 said what she did was "retraumatizing" for me, and I definitely feel that way...and hope that some day, I can snap out of it. Her decision has greatly affected my life. Because it didn't just stop at the touch. "Love" was taken away, extended Emails, or check in Emails stopped, her hugs went down to barely touching me, and then pushing me away if I held on more than a couple seconds, and most recently, she took texts away. She said this was not just for me, but for everyone, and I know I wasn't misusing texts, but it was nice to touch base once in awhile if I was having a rough day, just to hear from her. She DOES, however, text me very occasionally....so share a photo or something....and if she does, I usually respond by Email, I don't want to fall into that texting trap. It's just too much with this T. I gotta start figuring things out, but I feel like I'm going in the right direction with T3. She will help me get through this.... but it's SO hard. And I feel so shameful that I still have such hurt feelings over this, over a year later!
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#132
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I'm sorry that you're still feeling hurt by T1. I wish she would have acted differently so you could come to terms with all the losses, but she seems incapable of doing that. I think seeing T3 more is a great idea, and will enable you to quit T1. You know my T is an SE T also, and I think she's great! I think SE requires a special, loving, accepting kind of T, and your T3 sounds like she is that kind of person. I would trust your gut feeling. Good luck, and don't be hard on yourself! It's not your fault!
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#133
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I don't think your shameful feelings will ever subside as long as you are still seeing T1. You open yourself up to this kind of self inflicted torture every time you see her. She is the trigger because she is your abuser. None of this is your fault. Thanks for the update. I really hope the transition away from T1 will go easier on you than you expect. |
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#134
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What AllHeart said
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#135
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Thank you!!
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#136
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#Life is a beautiful lie# |
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