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Jun 24, 2015, 03:21 PM
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I opened my package (finally) and it was the book I wanted!!! Ex-T gave me her book! Her favorite book which she said she would never give away. It's mine. I now have a piece of her. I'm so happy!
But it is also bittersweet. I would sacrifice the book to have a relationship with her again. I still am angry at her for putting me through this. And now I'm confused. She gave up something invaluable to me. That has to show she really does care, probably does love me. But then why can't I have contact? It makes me sad and still wondering why... But, back on a happy note... I saw my Pdoc today (the one who went on maternity leave for 5 months). I updated her on all that has happened. It went really well. She wasn't mad at me for anything with my ex-T, she wasn't disappointed that I SI'ed, she was proud of me for completing the DBT group, and she was proud of me for finding another T. And she said it's okay that I still remain her client!!! So I officially have my Pdoc back! Now for therapy in a few hours which should be good. And then off to dinner with my family. Pretty good day, I think. Oh, one more thing... I Got My Book!!! 
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#2
Jun 24, 2015, 03:27 PM
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That's fantastic. I would also see it as proof that she cares.
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Jun 24, 2015, 04:22 PM
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Good for you. Sounds like she really cares for you.
Sounds like you are making progress, too. Sent from my iPad using Tapatalk
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Jun 24, 2015, 04:28 PM
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I'm so happy for you Scarlet! That's great both about the book (I'd been thinking about you today wondering!) and your pdoc.
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Jun 24, 2015, 04:40 PM
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I completely forgot what day it is today! YAY! That's awesome! I know the book has more sentimental value than anything...but did you ever tell us what the book was? What a thoughtful gift!
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Jun 24, 2015, 04:51 PM
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Well, I don't know how your day is going but this has made my day!
I'm delighted for you, really I am. You deserve this. |
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Jun 24, 2015, 06:00 PM
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Quote:
 ). She said she would never give up the book, but here I am and I have it!She used to let me take/borrow it whenever I was struggling, would want her to be with me, or would miss her. So it has great value to me 
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#8
Jun 24, 2015, 06:01 PM
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Quote:
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Jun 24, 2015, 06:17 PM
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So happy for you ! Enjoy !
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Jun 24, 2015, 06:29 PM
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That's just awesome. Such a meaningful gift...and what's more special is that she's had it for a long time and said she'd never give it up. I'm sure you'll cherish it forever!
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Jun 24, 2015, 07:48 PM
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Quote:
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Jun 24, 2015, 07:54 PM
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So special and so great and I think you can truly move on now with your life ( in a sense of getting happier with your life) . Sending you hugs
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Jun 24, 2015, 09:22 PM
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Therapy went well today too. We talked about the book and how much it means to me. We also talked about how it gives conflicting msgs: I care about you, but don't contact me. My T said it's like she's doing the push/pull thing that people with BPD do, but to me.
My T thinks ex-T got lost. She got lost in all of my emotions. My T believs she didn't have enough experience with BPD and didn't realize it until when she terminated. She also believs that my T didn't have enough support to help her cope with all of the emotions. It's definitely an interesting take on the situation. But I told my T, even if her theory is correct, as her client and as a human being I deserved to be told the truth. We also talk about my fear of being embarrassed and being judged which is why I have so much anxiety around people. But overall, today has been a great day. I am super happy.
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Jun 25, 2015, 04:12 AM
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Yay, I am so happy for you!
Interesting what your T says about ex-T, that she got lost. But has still shown you she cares so much by giving you something she loved. |
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Jun 25, 2015, 07:39 AM
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I'm so happy to see you so happy!
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