[Sawyerr]

I've been having many dreams about my T. Usually it's about her leaving, disappearing, or ignoring me. Many times I dream about us being in the same place but I am not able to reach her, I see and hear her and that's all. She doesn't know I exist or recognize me.
A while ago I dreamt something kind of different, and I don't understand what it could mean. In the dream my T was naked and I was naked too. I don't remember myself, because it felt like my entire focus was on her. She took my hand and led me somewhere (I don't know where), and then she lay down and I lay on her. I think I was very young in those dreams. Then she held me and I listened to her heartbeat. It wasn't about her naked body, I don't think I paid attention to what it looked like (in my dreams), it was more about her skin and the touch and those things.

It confuses me (mostly the nakedness) because I don't have erotic feelings for her. I would appreciate any thoughts or ideas of what my dreams could mean.

Thank you.

[Crazy Hitch]

Thank you for sharing this with us Sawyerr

I'd look at it this way:

Perhaps the dream was about a vulnerable side emotionally that you opened up to and expressed with your T, something you'd been working on, a side to you that not many see and you are cautious about who gets to see it, or at least a longing to be able to express this emotional side to your T, that not many in the real world get to see of you.

I'm not sure if this helps, but it's kind of what I make of it. A sense of vulnerability in this world

I truly believe that we are our own best dream interpreter. . . . after all, it's our own brain that creates the dream!

That said, I'd offer up a guess that you're right on when you talk about believing that your dream is coming from a very "young" part of yourself. When we're young, we often want to merge or be "one with" the person we feel close to or who we see as offering nurturing, compassion and care. In our minds, when we are naked, we are at our most vulnerable . . . our most exposed. In your dream, both you and your therapist are naked. I personally would see this as a very good thing--as opposed to you being the only one naked in the dream. Often when we dream of being naked and everyone else in the dream is dressed, it's because we feel exposed and vulnerable and left to our own devices to deal with the pain of that exposure and embarrassment. In your dream, you and your therapist are both naked--perhaps you see her relationship with you as her offering herself up to allow that merger, that sharing of self . . . or perhaps that is your very young parts "wish" of what could happen. I don't think you have to worry about the dream being erotic or anything sexual. To me, it sounds much more maternal in nature than anything erotic. When a young child seeks nurturing from it's maternal figure, they often lie against the "mother's" chest to seek comfort and warmth. Pressing your ear against her chest to "listen" to her heartbeat is pretty standard "child seeking comfort".

I think the part of the dream about your therapist ignoring you, leaving or disappearing is fairly common to a lot of dreams about abandonment. It too is a very young feeling. A feeling of not getting what you need or want. We ALL want to be acknowledged, recognized and seen on a deep level. Dreaming about that not happening is anxiety and fear of that not happening.

But then, all that I've said above might be totally NOT what is meant by your dreams As I mentioned, dreaming is so personal.