Couch 97: Prime Pyramids

I did - I hope they do

I wrote something down this morning and spoke it out loud too and I think it's what started me to feeling better.... I wrote/said "'tis a seductive beast, it is. but it shall not win." Seductive beast being the spiral I found myself in for the past 5+ days. Thoughts are powerful, both negative and positive. I employed my innate stubbornness to the positive side and I've been pulling out of it since late morning. Right about the time I noticed the smile had started to come back into my voice on the phone, my good friend at work who sits next to me leaned back and said "You sound like you're feeling better!" And I said yes, I do, I just noticed that, and I think I am starting to!" She has been quite worried about me since Friday and I feel so bad that I worried her. The guy who sits next to me on the other side, who is dealing with his own stuff and signed himself as "dark cloud" in my recent birthday card, even asked me today after I'd gotten pretty much back to normal "what was wrong with you anyway, I've never seen you like that." I just told him I had been feeling very fragile. It is nice to be cared about by my coworkers. I hope it's over for the time being. I'm feeling a lot better, at home this evening, and stronger for having come through it without calling or emailing t. (Of course, I did talk to her in my head last night for awhile. I do that from time to time.) Thanks for helping me through it, my couch peeps!!

Not only is 97 a prime, it is one more than a multiple of four. Therefore it can be expressed as the sum of two squares.

Also, hugs to Mastodon!

Best not to watch.

Recovering from a tonsillectomy and bronchitis. Gonna curl up for a little bit. What happened to Mastadon?

Thank you for the hugs, people.

Yay! It's spelled right. Now I cross that off of my 'stupid things I incessantly worry about' list.

"Stupid things I incessantly worry about" is my specialty! Did I ever tell you guys this story? This is how I ended up getting diagnosed with GAD.

One night at 2:00 am my internet stopped feeding a signal to my iPod, therefore I could not watch my TV show anymore. I was in the kitchen rebooting the machine, trying to reach support-line, then I realized "how embarrassing if I haven't paid my bill!!" so I needed to check that before I called customer service. But without internet, how can I check my bank account?? And how can I just let this rest until I know for sure!!

So this went on for an hour and a half, I kept getting more and more agitated, and I just couldn't REST until I knew if I paid that damn bill. At 3:30 am on a school-night I was getting dressed to drive 5 miles to the ATM to check my history. Something finally clicked for me that I was acting like a fool, and I didn't go. Of course that next morning everything was working fine, and I had stayed up half the damn night for nothing.

When I told my Pdoc what my anxiety was like, he looked at me with something akin to disbelief, then after I told him this story he said "I'm so sorry."

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Hello couch!! Payday, or as I like to call it, transference day (the day I transfer all my money to my debtors!) and it's hot as blazes out there. Glad to be in here even if they are making me work a little bit! Tonight is tattoo night, I'm scared and excited at the same time, and I hope I don't scream like a little girl and disgrace myself!!

***bumping the Couch back up where it belongs***

Oh dear, I ran out of lithium last night so took my prescription into the pharmacy who said it was only just out of date and they couldn't dispense it. I rang the doctor for an appt but she couldnt see me for another 10 days. I asked the receptionist to see if my dr could write me a new one. Its a 48 hr turn around but at least better than 10 days without lithium. I'd be completely round the bend by then.

If your pharmacy knows you well and lithium has been a standing prescription for some time, they may be willing to advance you a day or so of lithium while the matter gets updated. Ask and see. They might be able to confirm you called your doctor or something and be able to help you.

Thanks Chris I never thought of that. I have done that before. I'll give it a go. This was a pharmcy student who saw me.

Talk to the pharmacist, not an underling. All they can do is say no. Ours has always been very helpful that way, but I think our med bills pay their light bills. LOL!!

Tattoo is done, I didn't disgrace myself but I did have to grit my teeth a few times. Wanna see?

Nothing like a birthday to remind of your lack of accomplishments and unmet goals.. Here's to another year older and not sure any wiser.

Can you post a pic?

Meds all fixed up. Doing the washing so the downstairs neighours who both work can use the machine and clotheslines on the weekend.

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And I lose my mother of the year award for putting my kids name out in public. This is my upper right thigh, her name has been there 18 years, and that's the semi-colon butterfly she designed.

It finally quit raining and so I have been walking new pup 4 times a day. It is exhausting.

I love the design! Its like a a whats the word not abstract its on the tip of my ah stylized monarch, with the red and black.

My neighbors have a Dennis the Menace type dog that just turned one a few weeks ago. We'd all been taking bets on whether or not he would make it that far (or his people). I put a Free sign next to him when they had a garage sale, but there were no takers. He is inexhaustible, but I not-so secretly adore him.

Evening....err...early morning, couch.

I am home from CVS. Had a late shift tonight. It was crazy mad tonight. We were still putting truck away when i had to leave. It was almost done though, so the night pharmacist won't have too much to do.

The night pharm was hungry, so she ordered pizza to eat and offered me some. So we had a "pizza party" while putting truck away between helping customers. The night pharmacist this week is only a month older than me, so she thinks like a young person still. We have "parties" while working in the pharm a lot at night. One of the visiting pharmacists one night brought in a fried chicken dinner (with sides and biscuits) from bojangles. Our pharm manager doesn't mind as long as we throw our trash away and don't leave food out to attract bugs. And as long as we don't eat and fill prescriptions at that same time. We keep out food in the back and eat between filling scripts. Heck, he eats whlie verifying scripts, so he can't really tell the underlings not to.

A few more positions opened at other schools today, so I applied. We'll have to see if I get any calls. Making some big decisions lately.

Off tomorrow. I will rest up for Saturday when I have a 12.5 hour shift. It will be quite interesting. I will be the only tech there from 9am-10am and 4pm-9:30pm. There is one other tech scheduled 10-4, so there will be two of us then. Hopefully it will not be crazy like some other Saturdays. The new day pharmacist is working too, since our pharm manager (the other day pharm) is on vacation.

Well, I am hungry despite having pizza earlier, so I think I will chow down on some potato chips. I feel like something salty.

I like the tattoo. It's a nice way to do the semi colon without it looking like you're getting the same tattoo everyone else is

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Cool I love the tat.

Everything changed last session and I want to change it back to the way it was before....