Totally Stuck!!

I been in therapy about 10 weeks and I was making progress. I like my therapist and I haven't had any bad experiences with her. I've been doing my homework pretty much every day in between sessions because I really want to figure myself out and be able to start changing. But all of a sudden over the last couple of weeks I have just stopped progressing. It's like there is some sort of blockage that will not let me go any further.
Writing had been a big help for me and every week I had been reading aloud and then 2 weeks ago I just could not read out what I had written. There was nothing overly important in this piece of writing, I have read out much worse stuff, but still I couldn't do it and haven't wanted to read ever since. It feels so disgustingly repetitive. Even the room is just too familiar, I'm considering asking if I can sit on the other hard chair instead of the couch as I just hate sitting on the couch. Anything to just make it feel different, because the last thing I want right now is to go in to that setting again (even though I do want to!)
I know I do this in my relationships with people, once they become familiar I want them away from me and then I want to get to know someone else instead then I repeat the process.
I have discussed all of this with T and she keeps telling me to ask myself what's the worst thing that could happen, and I really don't know, it's just this instinct that I have to move away from familiarity. At the very beginning of therapy I told T that I needed to work through my issues quickly before I pushed her away and she explained that this relationship would be very different from typical everyday relationships and she would not be getting after me or calling me up or anything like that so there was nothing to fear. So I relaxed, but now 2 months later I am repeating the old pattern anyway. Any ideas on why am I am doing this and how am I going to get around this? Any opinions would be greatly appreciated

I don't think you're stuck - I think you're at the beginning of when therapy gets real. It sounds like you're starting to attach to your therapist emotionally, and that's when each of us begins to play out our old patterns in the therapy relationship, and that's a good thing. Only by playing it out in an environment where it is both safe and all about you, can you change those patterns. You don't "get around" it, you go through it.

If you decide to do it, it will be hard, but that's how we really change. Intellectual understanding doesn't do it, it can only show where to start.

I agree with the previous poster, it sounds like therapy is doing its job - you repeat the familiar patterns and talk them through to resolve them. In saying that, if changing seats will help you engage or help you understand what's happening better then feel free to do that too.

To me it seems as if you want to protect yourself from hurt.Have you been hurt in a relationship AnaWhitney?Do you want to keep all relationships at the formal level so that no one could get familiar enough to prick you?If my surmiseis true I could elaborate,but maybe I am mistaken.
Take care.

That makes a lot of sense, thank you so much

Hi, thanks for your reply. That's the funny thing, I have never been hurt in a relationship because I have never been able to let myself get into one. The only time I can bear physical contact is when I am drunk. In fact it's the only time I feel close to anyone. But no I've never been in anything close to a romantic relationship, and I am terrified I never will be able to enter one. Pathetic or what!?

Not pathetic at all!!!

You're going to therapy, you're starting to touch the surface, you're taking care of yourself.

You're brave and strong.

Brave and strong, indeed!

It is not pathetic at all,you are just being cautious.
Our reactions begin to take shape while we are still babies and so many unknown factors shape our personality.It is good that you have not been hurt.You only need to take baby steps towards trusting people.You will not be able to enjoy the blessings of genuine love unless you go close to someone.Yes it opens you up to possible negative repercussions but unless you put your foot in a shoe you will not know whether it fits or not.
You are young I think,there is plenty of time for you to find your way,don't lose heart.
Love n hugs.