[Daeva]

Hey guys it's been a while. Been doing ehhhhh. I have had a relapse. In the middle of the relapse my staff (I'm in supportive apts. program) decided that I am going to no longer see my T, and am going to a day program instead. (Basically six classes of group therapy with different leaders). I didn't even get to say goodbye to my T. I miss her so much. I don't even have an email for her, and to call and leave a twenty minute voicemail is just not a valid option.

I love the day program, it IS helping me, but there are issues i need to talk to my T, or a private T about, however the program doesn't allow that. I never got to discuss or work out my issues with how I sexualize every father figure in my life. And I can't in the day program because one of the leaders and I are close and I see him as a father figure and so I sexualize him as well. And the place is so full of drama and gossipers there's no way it wouldn't get back to him.

How am I EVER going to work this out now? Why did I waste my time in therapy?!

That sounds so hard I am sorry you are being taken away from your t. Hat sounds completely unfair.

Who are these people that didn't give you a chance to do an ending with your T? Do they know nothing about therapy? Can you ask for a session with your old T to process an ending?

[Daeva]

Unfortunately I can no longer have any sort of sessions with her because my insurance wouldn't cover it. It's considered double billing to them. I just have to accept the fact that I won't be seeing her anymore. My staff really have no idea, they just think it's like going to a doctors for cold. They just don't get it. Which is fine, I can't change them. I just feel they are a bit insensitive.

[Daeva]

Reporting back--this turned out better than I thought.

Originally Posted by Daeva

Reporting back--this turned out better than I thought.

So glad it turned out better than you'd anticipated. How are you doing?

[Daeva]

I'm doing well, thank you I'm well into recovery, both substance abuse and mental illness. The best part is my T (I still call her mine) is volunteering there for three months so I get to see her a little. She is a counselor there, I have to admit I get this insane jealousy when someone goes, 'oh my counselor is angela' and i'm like.......she's mine. but she's not my counselor at the place, i've been placed with someone else before she even came to volunteer. Oh well. I get to see her though.

[FranzJosef]

Originally Posted by Daeva

Hey guys it's been a while. Been doing ehhhhh. I have had a relapse. In the middle of the relapse my staff (I'm in supportive apts. program) decided that I am going to no longer see my T, and am going to a day program instead. (Basically six classes of group therapy with different leaders). I didn't even get to say goodbye to my T. I miss her so much. I don't even have an email for her, and to call and leave a twenty minute voicemail is just not a valid option.

I love the day program, it IS helping me, but there are issues i need to talk to my T, or a private T about, however the program doesn't allow that. I never got to discuss or work out my issues with how I sexualize every father figure in my life. And I can't in the day program because one of the leaders and I are close and I see him as a father figure and so I sexualize him as well. And the place is so full of drama and gossipers there's no way it wouldn't get back to him.

How am I EVER going to work this out now? Why did I waste my time in therapy?!

These all sound like perfectly normal feelings. The aim of therapy is to feel normal feelings and process them normally. Therapy is not going to make you immune to pain.