Will I ever be independent again?

I'm 36 year old woman and to make a long story short, last year I had a very traumatic bipolar episode with psychosis that lasted 6 months and was hospitalized 8 times. I used to be independent. I lived in Chicago in my own, had a good job, etc. I've had to move in with my parents, who have been absolutely amazing. I find myself thinking about my episode a lot even talking about it with my parents. I keep reliving the details because it felt so surreal, like I was hypnotized and God was trying to communicate to me. I just started working again after taking a year off but I'm most concerned about my living situation. I'm now so attached to my parents that I feel I could never leave them. I want to move back to Chicago in my own place but something that was previously so easy seems so scary. Has anyone gone through something similar? Will I gain back my independence?

I haven't gone through your situation. I've gone through bad depressive episodes where I became very nearly unable to live on my own.

Coming out of one of those feels like convalescing after a serious illness (I suppose that's what it is.)

I'd say that the biggest thing in favor of your being able to live on your own again is that you did it successfully before. You have history there and lots of skills.

You'll have to decide when you're ready, or close as you think you're going to get, and then go for it.

Another alternative would be to stay in the town where your parents are but get your own place. Or you could do that first and then decide whether you feel ready to move back to Chicago.

Best of luck to you.

Same thing happened to me at 22, it's a struggle but it gets better. I had a psychotic episode that lasted 2 months and diagnosed as bipolar type one. I am still struggling but live on my own, have a full time job etc and pretty good friends and family. It gets better take your time!!!!

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