Originally Posted by Leah123

I'm pretty sure it's the pizza, burritos, brownies and sitting at a desk all day in my case.

Yeah, that about sums it up for me, as well!!

Holy smokes, couch. I just realized while posting on another thread that I've been in therapy with current t for 4 years next month. How can this be?! Since I saw her in person for the first year, and only started seeing her in person again last month, we did phone sessions for longer than I realized! Cra-azy man. Oh well. I must admit I kinda like that we'll hit the 4 year mark in person....

[LonesomeTonight]

Not sure where to post this, and since Psychotherapy is my usual community, figured the Couch would be OK. Today's World Suicide Prevention Day, which I learned from a few Facebook posts. I initially just shared the link, then kept thinking I should post something else, especially after a high school classmate that I didn't know very well talked about his attempt many years ago. (Not sure if I need to trigger that or not. I feel like I over-trigger warning stuff.) So I checked on whether I could block certain people on the posts, like my parents, some other people on that side of the family, and my in-laws for a certain post. Did that successfully (and checked the "view as person X" option after I posted, to be sure). Then posted the following:

"Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. You may think that you don't know anyone who has attempted suicide. But you know what? If you're reading this post, then you do. It was just under 20 years ago. I should have reached out before it got to that point. If your thoughts are going in that direction, please reach out to someone--friend, family, therapist, a helpline, clergy, anyone you trust. We all have people who care about us and who would be willing to talk--it's easy to forget that sometimes. This year's theme is Coming Out of the Darkness. So I am."

Then I sat there very nervously, like "What did I just do?" I quickly got a bunch of likes, a couple comments, and a PM from someone I'd known in college thanking me, since she'd lost a couple friends that way in the past few years. My H supports me in the post, too (e-mailed him right after I posted and said I could take it down if he felt uncomfortable). Some of the comments were people talking about their own attempts in the past. A couple were people saying they were glad I was still here. I just find the response to be really heartwarming. So thought I'd share... (The actual 20-year anniversary is 10/7.)

My mom would be so horrified that I posted this. On multiple levels. Hopefully it doesn't get back to her. But this is my life, not hers...

Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Not sure where to post this, and since Psychotherapy is my usual community, figured the Couch would be OK. Today's World Suicide Prevention Day, which I learned from a few Facebook posts. I initially just shared the link, then kept thinking I should post something else, especially after a high school classmate that I didn't know very well talked about his attempt many years ago. (Not sure if I need to trigger that or not. I feel like I over-trigger warning stuff.) So I checked on whether I could block certain people on the posts, like my parents, some other people on that side of the family, and my in-laws for a certain post. Did that successfully (and checked the "view as person X" option after I posted, to be sure). Then posted the following:

"Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. You may think that you don't know anyone who has attempted suicide. But you know what? If you're reading this post, then you do. It was just under 20 years ago. I should have reached out before it got to that point. If your thoughts are going in that direction, please reach out to someone--friend, family, therapist, a helpline, clergy, anyone you trust. We all have people who care about us and who would be willing to talk--it's easy to forget that sometimes. This year's theme is Coming Out of the Darkness. So I am."

Then I sat there very nervously, like "What did I just do?" I quickly got a bunch of likes, a couple comments, and a PM from someone I'd known in college thanking me, since she'd lost a couple friends that way in the past few years. My H supports me in the post, too (e-mailed him right after I posted and said I could take it down if he felt uncomfortable). Some of the comments were people talking about their own attempts in the past. A couple were people saying they were glad I was still here. I just find the response to be really heartwarming. So thought I'd share... (The actual 20-year anniversary is 10/7.)

My mom would be so horrified that I posted this. On multiple levels. Hopefully it doesn't get back to her. But this is my life, not hers...

I was considering doing a similar post on facebook but I chickened out because of how my mother would react. Kudos to you for being brave and sharing it. You have given me a little courage to maybe go ahead and post what I wrote.

[Ike McCaslin]

Murray, i think of you every time I hear this song. Hope you are well.

IKE!! Sorry to hear about your D. Hope all is going well for you and the black dog hasn't bit too much. He's hanging off my *** big time atm.
Here's that Hollies song for you.

The end of a couch isn't the same....

om f'ing g. NOW the loan officer says "Oh, wait, we have to get verification of your employment now." WHAT THE WHAT?! wouldn't you think they'd verify that I have a job a lot sooner than the LAST MINUTE?!

smh and crawling under the couch to hide. Somebody point my husband the way when he comes looking for me after they're finally done if they EVER will be done.

I am never EVER buying another house. Ever!!

Sorry couch. Rant over. I maybe should find someplace else to vent.

[unaluna]

Originally Posted by Ike McCaslin

What really has me pissed off is the 504 plan proposal we signed off on came back with alterations. On the form we signed. It looks like we agreed to the changes. Fortunately, we have a copy of before and after. I can't believe they would try to alter a document that was previously signed.

That is so bogus!! I blame the new generations. Us pot-smoking hippies would never try anything like that. For reals.

Originally Posted by artemis-within

om f'ing g. NOW the loan officer says "Oh, wait, we have to get verification of your employment now." WHAT THE WHAT?! wouldn't you think they'd verify that I have a job a lot sooner than the LAST MINUTE?!

smh and crawling under the couch to hide. Somebody point my husband the way when he comes looking for me after they're finally done if they EVER will be done.

I am never EVER buying another house. Ever!!

Sorry couch. Rant over. I maybe should find someplace else to vent.

It's just paperwork, Art. It's par for the course. On closing when you see the mountain of paperwork they have and that you'll have to sign and initial in a million places, you realize all this crazy paperwork and red tape is just what it is. Let the loan and real estate people handle it and take lots of deep breaths. When you walk out of the closing with your house keys you'll be thrilled. The process is crazy-making, but the end result is pretty great.

[Ike McCaslin]

Originally Posted by Bipolarartist

IKE!! Sorry to hear about your D. Hope all is going well for you and the black dog hasn't bit too much. He's hanging off my *** big time atm.
Here's that Hollies song for you.

The end of a couch isn't the same....

The Hollies with a banjo. Wow, I never knew.

[unaluna]

Originally Posted by artemis-within

om f'ing g. NOW the loan officer says "Oh, wait, we have to get verification of your employment now." WHAT THE WHAT?! wouldn't you think they'd verify that I have a job a lot sooner than the LAST MINUTE?!

smh and crawling under the couch to hide. Somebody point my husband the way when he comes looking for me after they're finally done if they EVER will be done.

I am never EVER buying another house. Ever!!

Sorry couch. Rant over. I maybe should find someplace else to vent.

Maybe they mean, to make sure youre STILL working? But they didnt want to OFFEND you by putting it that way. This REALLY deserves a rolleyes - ie to them! Dirty double mother suckers!(Heard that tonite on a big bang rerun)

[Ike McCaslin]

OK, Here is Coven with their only hit. Have you guessed already?

One Tin Soldier. Oh, what a Billy Jack fan i was.

Early bedtime tonight. It has been a rough start to the school year. It isn't the kids; it is crazy messed up schedules, constant interruptions, etc. I'm in that "just leave me alone and let me teach" frame of mind right now. Thank God tomorrow is Friday already.

But we had a nice evening. Today is hubby's birthday so we all went out for supper and then to DQ for some ice cream. I'm just too pooped to pop right now.

[Ike McCaslin]

This is the first .45 I bought with my own money.

Great tune.

[RTS?]

It's like the couch originals reunion.... We need Wiki and Granite and Mastodon and MKAC to all be on at the same time as Ike and LolaCabana and BiPolarartist and others...!

Everyday is special but you can never go back to it again

[unaluna]

Originally Posted by Ike McCaslin

This is the first .45 I bought with my own money.

Great tune.

Record. Not gun. What the kids call a download. Eta - i cant believe i had that kneejerk reaction to ".45". That is sad.

And may i say i hated that effing song! It played CONSTANTLY while i was waitressing at a diner during my senior year in college. that and Youre So Vain. They have the same rolling melody.

Originally Posted by hankster

Maybe they mean, to make sure youre STILL working? But they didnt want to OFFEND you by putting it that way. This REALLY deserves a rolleyes - ie to them! Dirty double mother suckers!(Heard that tonite on a big bang rerun)

I realized that myself a few minutes ago.... they just wanna make sure I didn't quit my job.... sigh. I really need to calm the flip down about this. Thanks for letting me vent here you guys. I really really appreciate it so much. Yeah the stress comes back every day when I get home from work and get yet another email, but.... y'know what? I realized something. I'm letting myself feel the stress, and venting it out here, and letting it go at least to a point, enough to go to sleep at night and do another day at work, I think I can see the difference in me - at first I was letting it build up and freaking out and the least little other hiccup made me start bawling. But I'm not doing that anymore. I'm letting it go enough every day that the next days' installment isn't overwhelming. I would say this is progress. But I'm still never buying another house.

My first 45 was

Originally Posted by Ike McCaslin

This is the first .45 I bought with my own money.

Great tune.

I love that song!

Originally Posted by Ike McCaslin

OK, Here is Coven with their only hit. Have you guessed already?

One Tin Soldier. Oh, what a Billy Jack fan i was.

I love that song too!

[atisketatasket]

Gonna risk dating myself...never had the chance to buy a .45.

And it's not too hard to figure out my favorite song.

I can't remember my first 45 that I bought but I was given a free copy of John Cougars I Need A Lover just for walking into a record store.

What ever happened to the little toys you got in cereal packets

[LonesomeTonight]

So someone just PMed me about my post that I haven't talked to in years. He said he was in a really bad place right now, and reading my post might have helped keep him alive for at least another day. So...that really touched me. I messaged with him for a bit, then he said his dad was coming over because he was worried about him. I gave him my cell and said to call if he needed, which he said he would. It's both scary and touching to know I could have that effect on someone just from my FB post. Maybe "touching" is the wrong word. But, it's like, I want to be able to help people in that way. There was a post today about whether people wanted to be a T after having been through therapy. And stuff like that makes me wish I could do that... But then what if I have a negative impact, or can't help enough...

There is a lot of wind here today and wind always makes me restless and agitated...I will try to go for a small drive to calm down.