Resistant

Something bothers me about the fact that you had to get your T's permission to see the group therapist. I don't think that would sit right with me.

You are brave! Please let us know how you are.

I understand why I needed my T's permission. It's a rule of hers that I don't see her and another individual T at the same time. They might give opposite advice or something. I could have gone behind her back, but that's not the type of person I am. Besides, I don't want 2 Ts. I knew she would be okay with it for one time.

I'm doing okay. Kind of just wasting my days away. For some reason have been thinking a lot about ex-T lately. And then I have a lot of anxiety about seeing the group T on Tuesday. But otherwise things seem calm in my life for now.

I survived! I'm really proud of myself. He was really nice to me. He asked me if he could close the door. I said yes, but please don't hurt me. He told me he wouldn't hurt me. He could tell my anxiety was high and asked where in my body I felt it. To help calm me, he had us do a breathing and mindful exercise. It helped a lot. Then we just talked. We talked about my family and then we talked about my history. Then we talked a little about what happened when he told me I was being resistant. He said he meant it as he felt resistance in me. Similar, but different. We talked about how I felt, and how he could help me out if something similar happens in the future. That was it.

Group, on the other hand, was difficult. New people keep joining and it's overwhelming me.

Well done Scarlet! You are so brave to meet him individually in spite of how difficult it must have been. I'm glad you managed to resolve the issue with him,and I'm proud of you too!