i am worried because i dont think the other people/entities in my head want me to talk to my psychologist about things because they seem mad when i do like i am siding with him and agree with him like i am saying that what the doctors say is true and that i dont believe them when that isnt true i dont want to upset them but i dont know what to do i feel like i need to vent sometimes but i think they think i am pushing them away i dont mean to but i have had a lot going on lately and i am having trouble staying in one place. but i can feel they want me to focus more on them but i have school and ugh i but if i dont they will be mad. i dont know what to do about my psychologist some of them dont want me to see him at all and then the others just dont want me to tell him things. i dont want to cause any interference with their plans but i am quite tired and i dont really know what to think i am sorry should i just keep talking to my psychologist or do what they want only some of them want different things do you think my psychologist is evil/going to hurt me/us?

[ManOfConstantSorrow]

This sounds rather confusing and frightening. I really think your psychologist will help and not hurt. Best wishes and sympathy.

I hope i explained it properly maybe it was too long um i guess the main issue is that i am worried cause the other people/entities in my head dont trust my psychologist and dont want me to tell him things and i dont know what to think.

Those other entities are a symptom of psychosis; they aren't "real" in a concrete sense although I understand they are very real in your way of thinking. I hope you can find a way to communicate to your therapist and your pdoc what is going on in your head and find a way to perhaps take them up on the suggestion that medications could very well improve your quality of life as those entities would have much less control over you and your thinking and you could perhaps make some healthier decisions about coping and living your life. So long as you hide these things and don't get any real treatment for them, they will, unfortunately, probably continue to run your life. At some point perhaps you will see the necessity to be in control and make decisions for yourself instead of letting these not really real entities keep running the show. I hope that for you, but you are going to have to get there on your own when you are ready.

[divine1966]

Do you tell your parents about it? Illness gets worse if left untreated. Any illness. If you can't make a decision about treatment is there any family member who can help you?

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[Lauliza]

Yes you should talk to your psychologist. When other people have been in control for a long time they will get upset when you start to take some of that control back. So they may use fear as a way to manipulate you and keep that control. It's like a relationship where one partner has used psychological abuse to control the other. An abuser will often convince a partner that the outside world is dangerous and scary and that they are safer under their partners control. When a T tries to intervene, the abusive partner will push back even harder, saying the therapist is evil, when really, the abuser is the dangerous one.

I would never talk to my parents about this sort of stuff or any of my family either.

[LonesomeTonight]

Originally Posted by eden1515

I would never talk to my parents about this sort of stuff or any of my family either.

Is there anyone that you do feel safe talking about it with? Even someone other than your psychologist.

And I agree that you need to try to tell your psychologist what's going on, even if you're scared. It's like you're in an abusive relationship in a sense. Would it be better if you showed what you wrote rather than talking? Or saying you want to talk, but the people in your head won't let you?

It just makes me think of a child abuser who says they're not allowed to tell, or else the abuser will hurt them. But then you're letting the abuser/others have all the power...You need to take the power back, even if it's scary. It sounds like you're in a prison of sorts, and I'm hoping you can get out...

Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

Is there anyone that you do feel safe talking about it with? Even someone other than your psychologist.

And I agree that you need to try to tell your psychologist what's going on, even if you're scared. It's like you're in an abusive relationship in a sense. Would it be better if you showed what you wrote rather than talking? Or saying you want to talk, but the people in your head won't let you?

It just makes me think of a child abuser who says they're not allowed to tell, or else the abuser will hurt them. But then you're letting the abuser/others have all the power...You need to take the power back, even if it's scary. It sounds like you're in a prison of sorts, and I'm hoping you can get out...

No there is no one. I feel like i am in a prison but i dont know that they are abusive they say they want to help and keep me safe.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by eden1515

No there is no one. I feel like i am in a prison but i dont know that they are abusive they say they want to help and keep me safe.

That's just the sort of thing abusers say. They'll say, you know I love you. While they're doing everything to isolate you and get their way. It's very creepy (abusers).

[kennyc]

One thing you have to know and accept is that your psychologist is trying his/her best to help you. That is what they do, that is what they are trained and paid to do. They want to help you but you have to let them by discussing these things, these voices that are telling you otherwise because they are scared.

I know it is very hard. Wishing you the best!

Originally Posted by Angelique67

That's just the sort of thing abusers say. They'll say, you know I love you. While they're doing everything to isolate you and get their way. It's very creepy (abusers).

But they have their reasons to say what they say which they have explained to me.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by eden1515

But they have their reasons to say what they say which they have explained to me.

Okay, so what would you like to happen? What would your best result be and how would it happen?

I am not allowed to say.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by eden1515

I am not allowed to say.

But do you know, for yourself, or do they stop you from wanting anything for yourself?

Originally Posted by Angelique67

But do you know, for yourself, or do they stop you from wanting anything for yourself?

They stop me

[kennyc]

Originally Posted by eden1515

They stop me

Please share that with your psychologist at your next session.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by eden1515

They stop me

So they know what's better for you than you do?

Originally Posted by Angelique67

So they know what's better for you than you do?

well right now yes.

[Angelique67]

Is it them posting here or you?

Well it depends i am posting but they tell me if i can or cant write something.

[Angelique67]

I guess what I'm asking is if they're taking such good care of everything, what do you need from your therapist, etc?

Originally Posted by Angelique67

I guess what I'm asking is if they're taking such good care of everything, what do you need from your therapist, etc?

Because no one in my life ever listens to me and sometimes it is nice to have that but also the two serve completely different purposes for me they arent even relatable really so i cant really answer your question.