Some of you may remember that my t had to move away a few years ago. Well she has been visiting and we have spent lots and lots of time together, very very long sessions and doing fun things like going to lunch and stuff.
She has to leave in a few days. And the huge ache in my heart is starting already She is the only one i have in my life that i am close to. Because of my career, i have to be so guarded with people. I cant really let anyone close. But t and i are close. And she is so genuinely kind to me. When she leaves, it leaves a huge ache inside my heart.
We still have time to meet once or twice more before she goes back , and we have something special planned before she goes, but it is already starting in my heart. It aches so much . I dont want her to go

[Inner_Firefly]

Oh no, that sounds very painful and hard, to have the one person you are close to, move away so that you only get brief bits of time together. She sounds like a wonderful and kind T, no wonder you miss her badly. I hope you enjoy the special time you have together and store her caring in your heart, like storing honey to survive over winter.

*offers Starry Night virtual hugs*
Oh, this sounds so very painful.

It must be hard to have a career where you have to be guarded around everyone except T.

[Cinnamon_Stick]

I am sorry it hurts so much. I know that ache in the heart when you miss someone really close to you. Im glad you have such a good, close bond with your T. Can you still talk on the phone or Skype? Is she going to move back? Sending you hugs if you want them.

We do talk on the telephone and skype, she calls me when she has time to. It just isnt the same as in person though. T is affectionat- she holds my hand, plays with my hair, lets me sit by her, etc. We go get coffee and go for walks.she is the only person i trust. when she is gone, its just so hard.
With my career, i cannot let people close. The is the outsid starry night that people see and think they know, but that is just the public face i put on.
She still wants to move back home. She just doesnt know when her husband will say its ok though.
And she really, really doesnt want to leave either. Yesterday when we talked, i mentioned how sad i am that its almost time for her to go, and she doesnt even want to talk about it because it upsets her so much.
the whole situation is just lousy.

[junkDNA]

T and I spent the day together yesterday. It helped a lot. It might be the last day i see her. She is only here one more day i hope and hope and hope we can spend a few more hours together before she leaves. Its so hard when she goes.

[gayleggg]

I think it's great that you have such a good relationship. And that you set up quality time together when you can.

It's always hard when someone leaves after a visit. With me it's my daughter. I always feel lonely and lost when she leaves after a visit.

Staying in touch via Skype, phone, text etc. is a great way to ease the pain.

You are very lucky to have a t that you are so close to.

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She is leaving tomorrow. I am waiting to hear from her to see if we can spend some time together today. My stomach is in knots, and my chest is tight with anxiety.i wish i would hear from her. I know she is just busy with her family. But i wish she would answer my text or email to let me know.
I just want to see her one more time

still havent heard from t at all today. so worried about her. we are running out of day now

t finally got ahold of me. i am sitting here waiting for her to come out right now and meet with me for a while. i am so grateful.

on my way back home now....
finally heard from t and went over to visit her for a few hours. i feel so much better. i cried.... again. So hard to say goodbye. she said a lot of helpful and tender words which helped.