[MikeDelta]

I am sure I am not the only one who does this.... Any of those of you out there with a significant stubborn streak like myself?? How do you deal??

I know going to my T is good for me but at the same time i want to scream at her to leave me alone and that im fine im not sick. I get pissed off at think she doesnt believe me or understands; Even though I have not have had any major issues with her. I have problems with paranoia and real recently got extremely convinced she told everyone at my job about my problems even though i know its not true.

While I agree with her that i have a problem; i also reject all her ideas as well as the psychiatrist's diagnosises. I am notorious for leaving therapy periods of time refuting that I am not sick and then coming back like a young puppy crying for it's mother usually in the form of a email and an appointment (I am also notorious for going off medication and do not have a solid diagnosis probably somewhat to blame on this). Its sickening and embarrassing to me.

I apologize and hope that my therapist is patient with me and i guess she is.
I dont know where I was going with this post but im sure there are those who can relate?

[dannythedog]

i don't tell my therapist much of anything, because there is no trust in the relationship stemming from the fact that i'd get hospitalized if i ever admitted to suicidal ideation.

LOL, yup - I can relate on most counts. I sacked him *again* last week.

I don't think I reject his ideas - in fact most of the time I wish he told me more of his thoughts. But Im definitely

Little Miss Stubborn

[MikeDelta]

Originally Posted by CassyO

LOL, yup - I can relate on most counts. I sacked him *again* last week.

I don't think I reject his ideas - in fact most of the time I wish he told me more of his thoughts. But Im definitely

Little Miss Stubborn

hah, oh yes little miss stubborn might as well be my middle name

[Victoria'smom]

I'm suborn, resist meds and t,and pdoc.My T has got really good at catching me right before I get to the point that I'm like screw it, your a liar. What you have to do is promise yourself you can't quit no matter how wrong they are. T reminded me last session me without meds I'll end up in the hospital again. Find a T you can mostly trust is an issue.

[MikeDelta]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I'm suborn, resist meds and t,and pdoc.My T has got really good at catching me right before I get to the point that I'm like screw it, your a liar. What you have to do is promise yourself you can't quit no matter how wrong they are. T reminded me last session me without meds I'll end up in the hospital again. Find a T you can mostly trust is an issue.

Yea I had a nurse give me a stern warning on medicines.... I do trust my T but it takes me a while to open up and i dont think she is always a proactive as she should be... she probably doesnt want to break that trust.

"Little Miss Stubborn" i like that. I have sat in t's office more than once literally stomping my feet like a petulant child. For the period of time we did phone sessions, she would sometimes say "I am picturing you stomping your feet!" when mentally that's exactly what I was doing! she's good, she is.

[CantExplain]

At first, I enjoyed fighting Madame T. But as I became a less angry person, began to feel that she was fighting me. I didn't need that and I didn't want it.

I wansnt forced into therapy so there would be no point being stubborn about going. T doesn't dx me so I have no dx to fight against. I act out when my unconscious is fighting to remain that way, but that drama has only one actor, me. So I guess there's is nothing to be stubborn about.
I'm not sure I understand where this is coming from, unless you are court ordered into therapy.

[MikeDelta]

Originally Posted by _Mouse

I wansnt forced into therapy so there would be no point being stubborn about going. T doesn't dx me so I have no dx to fight against. I act out when my unconscious is fighting to remain that way, but that drama has only one actor, me. So I guess there's is nothing to be stubborn about.
I'm not sure I understand where this is coming from, unless you are court ordered into therapy.

I think the problem inlies I fight myself and in that I also fight my T

[skeksi]

I fight my T sometimes, but I'm really fighting myself. I will accuse him of not believing me, or of not understanding, etc. it's really me that doesn't believe myself. It's easier to fight him than face myself.

It's hard, but I'm trying to let him be on my side.

[MikeDelta]

Originally Posted by skeksi

I fight my T sometimes, but I'm really fighting myself. I will accuse him of not believing me, or of not understanding, etc. it's really me that doesn't believe myself. It's easier to fight him than face myself.

It's hard, but I'm trying to let him be on my side.

never really thought about it like that.... maybe your on to something. I feel I can relate