[lunatic soul]

I left my former T month ago, saying I have no money and I will call him when I could see him and I still didnt call him.
I simply left without any presents, hugs or anything else. I dont see any reason why I should come back, I dont want to continue this weird romantic relationship, I gain nothing, I wasted my time. I dont want to think about his feelings because if he cant be with me in real life, I dont want to be his client for hour a week.
I think attachment is something that destroys therapy and turns it into some kind of weird torture which is nonsense.
It wasnt therapy at all, it was weird relationship and I payed for it.
Okay I feel sick if I remember all the times he asked me to stay because he missed me. It was always too hard to leave, I dont even want to think about it, Im scared I would come back and love him again. I dont want it.
Yes I sound heartless but if he doesnt need me in his real life, why should I be in his therapy life.
I feel shame about how stupid I was but I dont think about it, so I dont care.

Just wanted to tell you that its possible to terminate your T without tears etc.
Funny but always when he had holidays I met someone else and last holidays (Xmas) I madly fell in love with someone else and I cant think of two men at the same time. I didnt see my T so his existence didnt disturb me to like someone else. Yes, I have issues in my current relationship, its really crazy, but I have another T to talk about it. I dont want to attach to him at all because I want to be free my issues and dont want to get one more issue and destroy my treatment again.

Yes, I thought I couldnt live without my T and would love him all my life but as you see everything ends, you can be free from everything even if you dont believe.

P.S. Im okay with leaving my T but Im not okay in my life, relationships etc so I still need help but I wanted to tell you that its possible to get over love in therapy, to get over crossed boundaries etc. I hope it gives hope to someone who is tortured by feelings in therapy. Everything ends

[atisketatasket]

Good for you. And you are not the heartless one here.

[Cinnamon_Stick]

Thank you for this. It is very inspiring!

[divine1966]

I hope you can get a good t soon

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[Piickles]

Good for you! Stay strong x

[missbella]

The most valuable thing I got from therapy was recognizing when it was harmful and leaving. Congrats for "taking care of business." Best to you.

I hope it gives hope to someone who is tortured by feelings in therapy.

Thanks, i am one of them.^ But i can't leave without feeling like i am dying. I am trying.

Glad things are working out so good for you.

[Chummy]

Good for you. And you're not heartless. You're very strong for leaving him when you thought you couldn't live without him.
Thank you for sharing this.

I'm not in a relationship with either of them, but I'm very attached to my T (woman) and I have very strong romantic feelings for my pdoc. I'll stop seeing them both at the start of April. T is going on leave and with pdoc it ends because I have the right meds, so I don't have to keep seeing him. The thought of not seeing them anymore, pdoc for good and T maybe temporarily, it scares me and it hurts so much.

[Tangerine87]

I tried to quit my t and I cried all night. Glad it went well for you but it sounds like this t is unprofessional

[lunatic soul]

Originally Posted by divine1966

I hope you can get a good t soon

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I already said I have one

[lunatic soul]

Originally Posted by ex vivo

Thanks, i am one of them.^ But i can't leave without feeling like i am dying. I am trying.

Glad things are working out so good for you.

I felt that way all those times I tried to leave him before. I felt like this first time I left him (but I came back). I cried like he was dead. but now its okay, it can be okay but maybe you dont have to leave your T and you need him/her now. when you wont need that help anymore, you could go away and it will be okay
Why do you think you need to leave him/her?

[lunatic soul]

Originally Posted by Tangerine87

I tried to quit my t and I cried all night. Glad it went well for you but it sounds like this t is unprofessional

I felt that way many times before so I understand you. Why do you want to leave your T?

I guess my T was unprofessional, he crossed the line with me many times but I gain nothing from this game.

[Tangerine87]

Originally Posted by lunatic soul

I felt that way many times before so I understand you. Why do you want to leave your T?

I guess my T was unprofessional, he crossed the line with me many times but I gain nothing from this game.

Because I felt abandoned and rejected.