I got almost nothing

Yeah, today was not a good therapy session. It started out okay, relatively, but went downhill the moment I mentioned what I wanted out of a new therapist. My old therapist...it was kind of like at times she was sort of unloading some of her grievances on me, including stuff like "what if you never know the answers", "why do you trust others more than me", things like that, and that...I guess I just feel uneasy. Some sessions of mine are all right, I guess, but in others I just feel minimized. Or there's an "is there something more to this" sort of thing. Which...no. I'm freaked out, basically, and need support as new crap comes up.

So yeah, screw today's session, and I guess the only good things I got out of it are more clarifications about my past. Guess I should hold onto the scraps I've got. :/

Hello ladyrevan21: Well... it's good you're at least getting something out of your therapy sessions. I've seen a few different therapists, for brief periods, over the years. None of them were really helpful. Most were worthless. I don't see one anymore. I think about it occasionally. But then I think... what's the point... There is none for me really. It's just an expense I don't need.

Sounds like your T might be a little jealous? Is that what I'm getting? My T was kind of like that when I told her I was seeing another T. She seemed to get a little defensive. I don't bring it up at all, every once in awhile she'll ask me how things are going. I'll say "fine" and she'll say "tell me more." I think she's more curious than she lets on. But... I'm not playing with her...I fought hard with my thoughts before I told her, I thought it was the right thing to do, and I didn't tell her to make her feel...I dunno...competitive?

She did say she has never had a client that she knew of who was seeing another T. In 25 years? Really?

Skeezyks: Sorry that the therapists you've gone to have been pretty bad. And yeah, I guess I am getting something. It's not much, but it is something.

Musinglizzy: That really sucks that you had that experience with your therapist. For me...honestly, I don't know whether or not she was jealous. I mean, she did recommend I switch. She did admit that she felt dismissed at times when I got skeptical about something, which...well, I wasn't really trying to be. I guess I'm just second-guessing a lot of people. I'm just hoping next session will be better and less...awful.

I read a lot of accounts here about Ts feeling hurt or upset or slighted, and the client having to watch what they say, and I wonder whose therapy is it.

Oh Jesus, that really sucks. And yeah, whose therapy is it indeed. Very well-put.