Health anxiety back at its peak again.

AnxiousGirl · May 15, 2016, 08:44 PM

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Originally Posted by junkDNA

I've had similar freak outs abt melanoma. My dad died from it in 1997 . My mom has a different form of skin cancer. I am pale with freckles and reddish hair so there is a real risk. There have been times where I've flipped out over something on my skin like like a mole or scab that won't heal. So I understand ur fears. I never go to the doctor tho so I take the opposite approach: ignore it and hope it goes away.

I think there's a grey area where we can be conscious of our predisposition and take proactive steps to reduce risks but not let the fear rule our lives

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So sorry to hear about your parents. Oh trust me, I was EXACTLY like you until I reached my breaking point. When I first saw the rash two years ago and convinced myself it was the C word, I just waited until it went away. Then when it did, I was still convinced I had the C word. So for 2 years I kept worrying, and it was EVERY SINGLE DAY. Then about 2 months ago I lost it. I became suicidal, stopped eating, and had to take a 2 week leave off school (doctors orders). Thats the ONLY reason i went to get my bloodwork done, because I couldnt live that way anymore.

bounceback · May 15, 2016, 09:19 PM

I understand the anxiety. I have barrett's esophagus which is a precancer for esophageal cancer so every time I get a endoscopy I get a little bit anxious. I try not to go on the internet because a lot of the stuff will scare you. Also try to breathe and tell yourself what you do know (just the facts) like you got a rash, it is on your legs. (don't make any guesses to what you presume it might be). Don't automatically just assume the worse because it can be a lot of minor things also..

AnxiousGirl · May 15, 2016, 09:29 PM

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I understand the anxiety. I have barrett's esophagus which is a precancer for esophageal cancer so every time I get a endoscopy I get a little bit anxious. I try not to go on the internet because a lot of the stuff will scare you. Also try to breathe and tell yourself what you do know (just the facts) like you got a rash, it is on your legs. (don't make any guesses to what you presume it might be). Don't automatically just assume the worse because it can be a lot of minor things also..

The logical part of my brain is telling me that it's nothing major because I had all tests done less than 2 months ago and everything came back normal. But the anxious part of my brain is taking over and thinking so many scary things

AnxiousGirl · May 16, 2016, 07:50 AM

Woke up with major anxiety. I feel like I want to cancel my session and just stay home today. I don't know what's going on anymore but I really can't live like this.

rainbow8 · May 16, 2016, 08:27 AM

Please go to your session anyway! Your T will help. Staying home will just make you MORE anxious.

LonesomeTonight · May 16, 2016, 08:36 AM

Yes, please go to your session! Tell your T what you're feeling. It can help to just get it out.

kecanoe · May 16, 2016, 08:46 AM

I understand not wanting to go to therapy, but it may be the bet way to get help from the horrible anxiety you are feeling

AnxiousGirl · May 16, 2016, 09:05 AM

I decided to go. But honestly my anxiety isn't going down at all. I don't know what to think anymore. When I look up online it's all the C word but I got my blood tested just under 2 months ago ! I don't know what to do anymore.

JaneTennison1 · May 16, 2016, 09:13 AM

Go to T for sure. I am fair skinned and get these rashes all. The. Time. I have done for 10 years or more.

divine1966 · May 16, 2016, 11:27 AM

There is nothing wrong with more knowledge but unfortunately many people have very little understanding of how their bodies work, lack education and so on yet they read webmd, don't understand half of it, make wrong conclusions and harm them selves even more, unnecessarily.

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velcro003 · May 16, 2016, 12:09 PM

I wish you could throw away your computer! I have a tendency towards hypochondria, and I try very hard not to google things, because all it does is freak people out. I easily get blood blisters from itching too much in one spot. They are red dots under the skin that don't itch or Anything, and go away in a day or two. I bet that's all it is. I hope you can go to therapy. Are you on any medications for your anxiety? As you said, you can't live like this anymore, and there are mess that can help you feel less anxious, so you can move forward in life and therapy and not be paralyzed by it.

Pennster · May 16, 2016, 12:36 PM

Could you try consoling yourself with the fact that you had this same problem two years ago and had it all checked out, and it turned out not to be cancer? So clearly there are other things that cause this problem, and something other than cancer has actually caused you this problem before.

Googling can really be a mixed bag. Sometimes it reassures, sometimes it panics.

AnxiousGirl · May 16, 2016, 01:27 PM

Thanks all. It seems to be fading away thankfully but I just got back from therapy and didn't have to nerve to speak about it. We did have a productive session though talking about why it's important to share feelings. So I hope soon I can feel confident enough to show my true emotions and not act brave and try to shrug them off.

LonesomeTonight · May 16, 2016, 05:45 PM

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Thanks all. It seems to be fading away thankfully but I just got back from therapy and didn't have to nerve to speak about it. We did have a productive session though talking about why it's important to share feelings. So I hope soon I can feel confident enough to show my true emotions and not act brave and try to shrug them off.

Can you send her an e-mail? I know you do that sometimes. That way you can get it out and make her aware of it...

AnxiousGirl · May 16, 2016, 09:00 PM

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Can you send her an e-mail? I know you do that sometimes. That way you can get it out and make her aware of it...

I could send her an email but I feel like I'm being such a bother. Like going into session, pretending I'm okay, then coming home and sending an email. I feel like it's getting annoying on her end too. I feel like the only client who has this much difficulty expressing feelings.

LonesomeTonight · May 16, 2016, 09:15 PM

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I could send her an email but I feel like I'm being such a bother. Like going into session, pretending I'm okay, then coming home and sending an email. I feel like it's getting annoying on her end too. I feel like the only client who has this much difficulty expressing feelings.

I'm sure you aren't...I feel like I'm a bother to my T and marriage counselor with the e-mails, but they assure me that I'm not. I think your T would prefer you get it out and be open with her.

AnxiousGirl · May 16, 2016, 09:45 PM

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I'm sure you aren't...I feel like I'm a bother to my T and marriage counselor with the e-mails, but they assure me that I'm not. I think your T would prefer you get it out and be open with her.

My T says that she loves it when I email because she gets to see what's feeling and thinking. I just don't always want to depend on it though and be able to speak openly like I'm sure her other clients do.

divine1966 · May 17, 2016, 02:13 PM

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Sure...but there's a difference between an educated consumer and someone who did a quick symptom search online and got fixated on a particular diagnosis or the first results that came up (I am not referring to the OP - this is a widespread problem). It's the latter group that I suspect divine's fiance is talking about.

Yup. Wasnt talking about educated research that patients would do and actually should do etc more about people who believe if it's on the Internet it must be true and at the end they get harmed.

Not everyone who reads things on the Internet understands what they are reading or knows how to apply the knowledge

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