I was on the way to therapy last week when traffic came to a standstill. I was concerned I was going to be late, so I called T to let him know what was going on. We discussed where I was and we would start our session on the phone if I didn't make it on time. I ended up getting there right on time. As T greeted me, he said he had just checked his phone to see what was going on. I didn't really think about it in the moment, but now I'm wondering if he was questioning if I was being honest about why I may be late, or was he really just curious as to what happened? I know all of you will probably say he was just wanting to see what happened, but sometimes I struggle with wondering if T believes the things I tell him. When I think about all the crap I've been through, I often think how in the world can so much **** happen to one person? It's insane. And to feel like maybe he was questioning me, by looking the traffic report up, bothers me.

On another note, I found a couple of T's social media accounts yesterday. No, I don't feel bad about looking him up. And, no, I don't plan on telling him I found him either. I may be slightly offended by some of the things I saw, but it's my fault for looking. I guess I get the importance of the whole 'blank slate' thing now. Oh well...

[musinglizzy]

I don't know you or your T but I would guess you are probably reading too much into it. I'll bet your T was just curious what was going on, not questioning your honesty.

[Pennster]

I would probably look up the traffic if I were waiting for someone and I knew they had run into traffic - not to check up on them but just to get an idea of how long their delay might be. Traffic is so common a problem that I couldn't imagine someone really doubting it as a reason for being late, particularly when you were being so conscientious in ringing him to say you were worried you would be late.

[amandalouise]

only you know whether your treatment provider believed you, suggestion ask them.

something to think about.... if the treatment provider drives or uses public transportation its understandable they would want to know of any detours, traffic jams, and such for their own use too.

[Ellahmae]

I have issues with knowing that t believes me. So when I text anything that I fear she might not believe I send a photo with it. Like my proof of I'm not lying so if you think I am it's your fault... I'm a loser.... Blah