i am getting really nervous i am supposed to see my psychiatrist tomorrow i dont know what he is going to say and i am getting super anxious but i cant change my plans so now i am worried he will send me back to the hospital. i still have a lot of magic stuff to do and he does not yet know i am a witch but anyway i just needed to vent and i dont i am just super worried about it.

[ManOfConstantSorrow]

I suggest telling him of your worries about hospital and suchlike, I think it will be helpful in the end. I hope it goes well for you.

Thank you i just hate not knowing what is going on and ugh it is hard to explain i am just worried the other will get mad or something i dont know if i dont know how to explain it i just i am worried he will call the crisis team again.

[ManOfConstantSorrow]

If you are actually in crisis the crisis team might be best. But it sounds as if you are coping. Perhaps you can explain how you are coping and I expect they will respond positively and be helpful in supporting you.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by eden1515

Thank you i just hate not knowing what is going on and ugh it is hard to explain i am just worried the other will get mad or something i dont know if i dont know how to explain it i just i am worried he will call the crisis team again.

Eden, please don't do any dark magic. I'm bringing it up because you said you still have magic to do. I'm worried about you self harming, and getting terrible karma for the whole thing.

[Victoria'smom]

Explain you don't wan't to go to the hospital but tell him. Why do you have a psychiatrist if your not willing to be on meds?

Originally Posted by ManOfConstantSorrow

If you are actually in crisis the crisis team might be best. But it sounds as if you are coping. Perhaps you can explain how you are coping and I expect they will respond positively and be helpful in supporting you.

Well I am not coping with anything I feel a lot worse than before the hospital I am just not posting certain aspects because I will get in trouble.

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

Explain you don't wan't to go to the hospital but tell him. Why do you have a psychiatrist if your not willing to be on meds?

I cannot take meds it not a willingness thing. And I keep seeing him because he says to come back and i get scared if I don't he will call the crisis team also if I don't go the demons get mad at me because it is harder for them to monitor me.

Hi Eden1515,

Yes, this does present some difficulty; for both you and your psychiatrist. He wants to do the best for you and if I am reading things correctly I think you know that but have your reasons to pull away. It sounds to me like other things are at work that are pullig you away from the doctor too.

If I can make a suggestion, talk to your doctor. Take someone with you who you think might be a good advocate if you can. Take the opportunity to advocate for yourself too. Perhaps you and the doctor can come to an agreement regarding what the boundaries or limits are regarding your health; a 'point' where you agree with him you need more care. Agree upon the limits and conditions you will agree to do so as well as what the steps will be when that point comes.