Hospital again

I will see what happens tomorrow and depending on what the hospital says and if they call back. I am very tired I still can't sleep the demons are really annoyed at me and I don't know what to do I feel really bad.

the hospital got back after we sent over the forms they said they would contact in the near future regarding admission i am super nervous i really dont know what to do i feel horrible i am so tired i feel like i am about to cry the demons are mad and really dont know what to do anymore i am scared they are going to take me they dont want me to go to the hospital i dont know if ugh i dont know what to do anymore.



i am so scared all the time i really dont know what to do anymore i am so so so so so tired everything hurts my head isnt mine i cant make it stop i cant i was supposed to do stuff for them they are mad i am scared they are going to try and get back at me for not doing what they wanted i feel like they want blood but i dont know if i can give them enough. i am really scared. i am sorry.

Eden, I never post to you because I don't know what to say that would be helpful. Please try to hold on until you get to the hospital. I always wonder if others in your life know how much you are suffering. Not the medical people. Like family. I think you CAN get better and I hope this hospital is the means for you to start healing.

Anything that wants your blood is not a good thing. So put your things away, OK? Wait for the hospital instead. That's what they can offer you: hope. Not these weird beings in your head.

i am trying but i dont know if i can and my family doesnt know i dont want them too. i am so scared and tired and everything keeps going wrong i dont know what to do.

i dont know if i can hold oni feel really bad i dont feel in control at all anymore.

That's exactly one of the reasons why getting in the hospital will be helpful. These things in your head don't care whether you live or die because they can always find someone else to torment. So hang in there, OK? The hospital can give you relief from them, and that's one of the things you need to get rid of them. It isn't poison, and it isn't a miracle cure either, because the meds might not get rid of everything. But meds will make them quieter, and a lot easier for you to get back in control and hopefully those beings will get quieter. Whose idea was it to have a war inside your head? I very much doubt it was you.

Please give meds a chance. Try them out and see. Yes, there are usually side effects but the main thing right now is to keep you and everyone else safe from them. The side effects can go away for most people, maybe after 4 to 6 weeks. I know that's a long time to wait for better days, but try it out and see. I'm rooting for you, and so are dozens if not hundreds more who are reading about your inner battle on here.

We all want you to feel better. And to finally realize these different forces in your head have no business being there, and wait until you finally get the benefit of the meds before you decide whether or not they are worth taking.

Everyone here just hopes you'll give it a chance. You have a lot of people rooting for you. A lot of love is being sent to you.

ETA also, the doctors might want to do blood tests. The doctors are ok. It's all the other things in your head, that want to hurt you, you must not take their bait because seriously, they don't care about you. But we do.

I don't I can't take meds I can't they are already really mad I don't even know if ugh they really don't want me to go and if I went there and took meds as well that would be it I couldn't they I can't even say it I am so tired and they are getting more demanding and it is all my fault everything is my fault I don't feel safe anywhere I don't know who to trust I feel like I am falling I can't stop I I don't feel good there is too much noise and I just I can't explain to it.

Eden we really want to help you but it is hard. The demons are not real. They are evil. You got to let people know what is going on and let them help you. You say you want to be better. That is the only way. Please let the hospital and your family and friends help you.

Everything is NOT your fault. You are not superhuman and if superhuman beings demand that of you they are not being realistic. Maybe it's impossible for them to be realistic but that's a deficiency in them, part of their limitations in being only spiritual beings.

If you start taking meds, you will never again have to be the water girl on your own team. You can be the great pitcher and hitter that you were born to be. You never have to feel that fear of these evil things again.

Everything is my fault though if I had just done what they asked. Ugh I so tired I feel like I am about to cry I don't feel good they won't let me stop.

It isn't up to them anymore. Starting with your next inpatient visit, the doctors and people at the hospital will be able to start you on a path of strength. So please let them work with you, and please work with them (the hospital people).

Nothing's your fault, your voices are telling you that. You need to relax do something you can do to relax yourself til hospital. It will be ok hun just keep relaxing and posts us for support. I know you are scared i would be too, however it's the thing to do. Trust them no matter what the demons tell you, reach out, reach out. I know you can do it!!

[quote=taylor43;5144147]Nothing's your fault, your voices are telling you that. You need to relax do something you can do to relax yourself til hospital. It will be ok hun just keep relaxing and posts us for support. I know you are scared i would be too, however it's the thing to do. Trust the professtionals they know how to help you. ingore the voices you hear. You have been in so much pain along time and i feel it's time to rest and be looked after. Please give yourself a gift to yourself just rest and let dr's help. Lots of hugs

i am trying it is all my fault though i they are too powerful i cant make it stop i am scared that if i go to the other hospital away from home the doctors will hurt me there and the demons will be mad and i dont know if i will be able to hide everything as well there i am scared i dont know what to do i am so so so tired i want to cry.

You should tell them everything. Don't conceal anything.

i but if i tell them everything they will hurt me

Have they ever hurt u before sounds to me like they've been threatening to hurt you for awhile and haven't. Maybe they are just words

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