Hospital again

The demons don't have your good health in mind. They simply don't care what happens to you. Demons get strength from your fear. And they are part of the devil, right? Satan is a massive liar. You ate being asked to not believe these demons. They are liars, and for whatever idea, they want to hurt you.

The hospital and doctors there want to make you well. It looks like that could be a long process. But you will feel so much better if you will cooperate with the hospital.

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Can't you just not go and find a public hospital with better security or whatever You should have options maybe even a residential place would be better than a hospital. Were they drug you ask what are your other options

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This is more like a residential place in a sense and not there are no other public hospitals this place is supposed to have therapy all day and all this other stuff I am just scared cause the demons are mad and these demons belong to God. Anyway I am just scared.

If it's a residential hospital, it's likely the people there are nicer than in the psych ward, because there's less coming and going. It could be a lot better. I hope so, anyway.

I hope you will find out the truth behind the demons and entities in your head. If you truly are exhausted, and want to scream, I think you'll feel much better in the hospital. But you've got to give it a chance.

It'll be okay Eden nothing last forever there have been people with your condition who have recovered you can to.its hard for you to imagine a world without the demons in your mind but there is one and you'll feel better for it just give it some time.and most important try to get better don't fight

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i really dont know what to do i feel horrible i cant even explain it i feel like i am about to cry and i dont know how much longer i can hold off doing anything i am so tired i really just feel awful i cant i am scared. my mum wants to ask for them to wait another week before i go as it suits her better but i dont think i can wait that long and i feel like if i go for another week i will back out and not go at all. i dont know what to do everything is a mess.

Hold the line with your mother. Trust your sense of what is best for you in going into the hospital soonest.

It sounds like you are beginning to understand that you need the help the hospital can provide. This makes my heart sing for you, because if you trust in something apart from all the fear that your demons hold over you, you can recover enough to be able to be part of the world, and to follow your happiness in life.

i dont know what to think or who to trust right now i am scared and tired and i feel horrible today

i want to scream everything hurts so much i dont know how much longer i can hold on.

Tell your mom you can't wait to go to the hospital. Tell her you really need help. If she still wants to wait another week, contact your psychologist and/or psychiatrist. Please try to hold on to at least get to the hospital to see what they can do to help...

it is not just her they need to reply we wiil find out tomorrow if it will be monday or the next monday but i dont think i can make it to the next monday. i am trying but i feel horrible. maybe i shouldnt go maybe i am just wasting everyones time i dont think anything will truly help it cant i screwed up this is all my fault. the demons are mad and that is my fault too. i keep screwing up maybe this is a mistake as well i dont know what to do anymore i cant think i just i am so tired i feel like i am about to cry everything hurts so so so much i cant explain it i dont know what to do.

i really dont feel in control anymore i dont know what to do.

Can you tell either the hospital or your psychologist that you can't wait till next Monday?

i dont think the hospital works that way and idk i am supposed to have an appointment with my psychologist in a few days if i am not at the other hospital by then but idk i am so tired. i just want to cry.

I agree with this. Can you call your psychologist and see if he can help? It sounds like your mum wants to help but doesn't fully understand the seriousness of the situation. It may need somebody like your psychologist to advocate on your behalf with the hospital. Just a thought.

I will see what happens tomorrow and depending on what the hospital says and if they call back. I am very tired I still can't sleep the demons are really annoyed at me and I don't know what to do I feel really bad.

the hospital got back after we sent over the forms they said they would contact in the near future regarding admission i am super nervous i really dont know what to do i feel horrible i am so tired i feel like i am about to cry the demons are mad and really dont know what to do anymore i am scared they are going to take me they dont want me to go to the hospital i dont know if ugh i dont know what to do anymore.



i am so scared all the time i really dont know what to do anymore i am so so so so so tired everything hurts my head isnt mine i cant make it stop i cant i was supposed to do stuff for them they are mad i am scared they are going to try and get back at me for not doing what they wanted i feel like they want blood but i dont know if i can give them enough. i am really scared. i am sorry.

Eden, I never post to you because I don't know what to say that would be helpful. Please try to hold on until you get to the hospital. I always wonder if others in your life know how much you are suffering. Not the medical people. Like family. I think you CAN get better and I hope this hospital is the means for you to start healing.

Anything that wants your blood is not a good thing. So put your things away, OK? Wait for the hospital instead. That's what they can offer you: hope. Not these weird beings in your head.

i am trying but i dont know if i can and my family doesnt know i dont want them too. i am so scared and tired and everything keeps going wrong i dont know what to do.

i dont know if i can hold oni feel really bad i dont feel in control at all anymore.

That's exactly one of the reasons why getting in the hospital will be helpful. These things in your head don't care whether you live or die because they can always find someone else to torment. So hang in there, OK? The hospital can give you relief from them, and that's one of the things you need to get rid of them. It isn't poison, and it isn't a miracle cure either, because the meds might not get rid of everything. But meds will make them quieter, and a lot easier for you to get back in control and hopefully those beings will get quieter. Whose idea was it to have a war inside your head? I very much doubt it was you.

Please give meds a chance. Try them out and see. Yes, there are usually side effects but the main thing right now is to keep you and everyone else safe from them. The side effects can go away for most people, maybe after 4 to 6 weeks. I know that's a long time to wait for better days, but try it out and see. I'm rooting for you, and so are dozens if not hundreds more who are reading about your inner battle on here.

We all want you to feel better. And to finally realize these different forces in your head have no business being there, and wait until you finally get the benefit of the meds before you decide whether or not they are worth taking.

Everyone here just hopes you'll give it a chance. You have a lot of people rooting for you. A lot of love is being sent to you.

ETA also, the doctors might want to do blood tests. The doctors are ok. It's all the other things in your head, that want to hurt you, you must not take their bait because seriously, they don't care about you. But we do.

I don't I can't take meds I can't they are already really mad I don't even know if ugh they really don't want me to go and if I went there and took meds as well that would be it I couldn't they I can't even say it I am so tired and they are getting more demanding and it is all my fault everything is my fault I don't feel safe anywhere I don't know who to trust I feel like I am falling I can't stop I I don't feel good there is too much noise and I just I can't explain to it.

Eden we really want to help you but it is hard. The demons are not real. They are evil. You got to let people know what is going on and let them help you. You say you want to be better. That is the only way. Please let the hospital and your family and friends help you.