[Waterbear]

I am finding that I have so much to say to my T that it is too much for me. I end up saying so little because all of what wants to be said is too much. The rest that is left inside is begging to be set free but it is all too much. I am lost among it all.

[itjustis]

I know how this feels, I've been there and it's so difficult and frustrating.

I told my T I had so much to say but couldn't find it somehow.
T told me to write it down...so I did.
I sent it via email and it was like an essay!
She read all of it and gave me a thorough response. At the next session she brought up the email and I sank back into the chair, she could see how uncomfortable it made me and left it.

It took me a while to form the email but I felt so much better for getting it out and having T respond.
Maybe you could tell her about how you're feeling and ask if she would be open to you emailing her or writing her a letter?

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[Waterbear]

Thank you. Frustrating is a good word. I do email my T most weeks and sometimes they are fairly long. She is great about it buy it is like it never ends, just goes in circles, round and round and I don't know what I think about things so each time it comes round again I have more to say because my thoughts have changed somehow. I haven't emailed this week because it just feels too much, like it would never end and if I don't say some of what I want to then I will be even more frustrated than I am saying nothing.

Thank you for your support, it means a lot. I am thinking of doing a timeline with my T because there are a lot of things she doesn't know about me that make me who I am and I am trying to explain me without telling her these things. Like clearing a shed out. Get it all out on the lawn and see what we are working with. I don't know if it will help but maybe it is worth a try.

[BonnieJean]

I experienced times like this too. My t has said that healing is not linear and sometimes we enter these overwhelming confusing phases. It is so uncomfortable but just keep working through it. It will get resolved eventually and probably bring you to a necessary place. When things feel overwhelming or bigger than me t thinks it is related to child stuff I'm working through. I hope the timeline is helpful and stabilizing for you.

[Waterbear]

Thank you.