i'm already stressed with my current life events. i don't need stress stress stress.

i was feeling like people were warming up to me here and had been tentatively making attempts to be supportive and helpful.

babble isn't a safe place due to policies and now i feel very distressed here. Haven't even made any real friends here yet and off i go.

Life is so precarious for me right now. i needed any support system i could get in whatever form. New to where i live. No support system in place. BPII and needing a network.

i liked you guys from what i saw.

do i need to leave here? am i too sensitive or too abrasive for PC? Is this a good "home" for me?

[skittles]

i tired to pm u..... but says ur pms are off.... id like to be ur chat with u and become friends... they r also saying my bipolar II so maybe we could be good support to one another.... pm if u want...... if im not on ill pm u back when i get on.. look forward to meeting and talking with ya...

it's on now. thanx

[MissCharlotte]

((((Gerber))))

I am sorry if I have not responded to your posts.

Please don't feel you don't fit in here. We all do!!

I have not been on very much the past few weeks because I have been very busy.

Know that we all care and support each other as much as possible. Also, it's summertime and a lot of people are on vacation. Plus, several of us are going through difficult times right now. Life has a way of intruding!!

Hang in. It takes time to build up a network.

I have found that PC is a good place to be when I am in need of support.

Have you tried posting in the other forums below? I think there is one for Bipolar. You might find more people with similar concerns.

Best of luck.

[Caramee]

Hi, I am fairly new here, but I've been on vacation. I have not caught up -- did something specific happen? I know I responded to one of your posts before I left in which it seemed like you didn't get the kind of support you needed. I know that is a terrible feeling -- to reach out and not be met. I'm not sure exactly what is going on, but I'm sorry you're hurting. I'll try to catch up and see if I can help more specifically. I hope you stay around. I'm trying to get to know people, too.

I PM'd you to offer you support and ask you to reconsider 'tone' that can be read into a post. I hope you are ok.

no, it's not that.. i understand people get busy, distractde, etc. we all have burdens. What i can't bear is assumptions and "shoulds." End alls and be alls. This is and That is.

i want to explain how wrong assumptions are and why, at least in my own example. But forums are tricky places... one cannot do such things and maintain peace.

it almost makes me laugh but it isn't funny. i want to say so much... but there is no point... no point at all. words words words.

i am reminded of a bible passage, which is ironic considering my lack of religion... about taking care not to complain about the speck in your brother's eye when there is a board in your own.

do i belong here? i don't know. i can't always bite my tongue, not when pushed... oh so many assumptions about so much.

how can i get along? i am generally very peacable and supportive... but what to do or say when pushed is a tricky idea online. i am not good at it. i can cut deep and cleanly with words and it isn't good for me or the community. i have a hard time with replies which require a push back.

maybe this is not the sort of support system i should have. i am so alone at this point. New to the city, few friends so far.. i know more doctors than friends due to medical issues. i had a good support network for my mental health in my last town, now i just have my T.

walking so close to the edge and all anyone has is the hands of others that hold them just far enough from falling.

i don't need "bipolar" support exactly. i just happen to be bipolar and it complicates things. My issues are not related directly to my illness at all really. i sought support for issues around therapy...

...maybe i was wrong?