![]() |
FAQ/Help |
Calendar |
Search |
#1
|
|||
|
|||
still
:-) saw him today (friday) and he said he had a cancellation for monday morning if i would like to come in then :-) three more sleeps to therapy :-) he is being really great. very gentle, still. i do a good enough job of beating myself up so its nice that he refrains. :-) i kind of have gotten involved with someone. talked about that last week. lots of things were triggering for me got a bit caught between past trauma and good present didn't know if things were okay or not okay feeling better today past %#@&#! all my past %#@&#! 15 years age difference. i said to t 'its too much, huh' he was like 'er... i don't really think that i should say either way' i wonder how much younger his wife is lol but he seems happy that i'm getting in touch with my human needs / desires for affection for comfort for closeness for companionship he seems really stoked about that and happy to be dealing with the things that are coming up / getting in the way for me, i guess. he leaves soon (not t - other guy) that will be kinda hard i'll miss him just trying to enjoy the present, though get some practice enjoying the present getting some nice experiences of a guy who is sensitive and respectful remember that remember that i'm kinda happy :-) |
#2
|
||||
|
||||
Good to see you happy ((((((( alexandra k )))))) ![]() I love my T too. ![]()
__________________
![]() Pegasus Got a quick question related to mental health or a treatment? Ask it here General Q&A Forum “Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by it's ability to climb a tree, it will live it's whole life believing that it is stupid.” - Albert Einstein |
#3
|
|||
|
|||
:-)
maybe my t is trying to make extra special sure he is there for me so i don't fall apart when the guy leaves. i've said over and over 'bout how scared i get that people are going to leave. that i'm scared to let people in because i'm scared i'll break into a million pieces when they leave. i'm kinda letting the guy in, though. kind of letting him in. i'll miss him when he goes. if he were staying around would i have got as involved with him though? maybe not. maybe not. definately not so fast (all but moved in lol). ambivalent about the prospects of a long term thing. enjoying the short term thing, though. not sure. get little twinges of concern / upset / panic. past stuff, i think. but sometimes i worry a little... not so sure. t said something about it being... 99% my past %#@&#!? 100%??? I went with accepting the 100 estimate. but... i dunno. i dunno. enjoy it, huh. nice t is making time for me. incase things turn to custard. in case i turn to custard. t is there for me. yup. yup yup yup. i feel half in a dream... what am i doing??? tis okay alex_k. tis okay. er... isn't it????? |
#4
|
||||
|
||||
I can understand you being apprehensive about this new relationship. Just wanted to tell you that the age-gap can work. I married an older guy some 18 years ago, still together, it can and does work. As for T, I have been with him over 5 years, feels like I have 2 men in my life! Different relationship of course, but very special!
__________________
![]() Pegasus Got a quick question related to mental health or a treatment? Ask it here General Q&A Forum “Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by it's ability to climb a tree, it will live it's whole life believing that it is stupid.” - Albert Einstein |
Reply |
|