I need my T

Something traumatic happened today. Really horrible. I don't want to write here what it is because it will make me identifiable, but it involved a medical emergency with a loved one, and it was very reminiscent of a traumatic memory I have. My loved one is okay, but I am very worried it might happen again and I am frightened of this person dying (which was the outcome of the traumatic memory). My T is away. I just emailed him and got the automated out of office response. I don't know what to do. I feel scared and alone. Where are you T?

I'm sorry this has happened Echos and the memories it has brought up which are understandable. I'm glad your loved one is OK. I hope your T responds soon and there is always support here to reach out to.

Thank you Out There. PC is pretty much all I have to talk to because I don't want to add my stress, fear and pain to the situation so I'm trying to appear okay, but I really want to cry.

We are always here

I hope your T responds very soon. So so sorry you are dealing with this....how awful

Oh Echoes, I am so sorry. How long is it until you are due to see your T now? I hope he picks up his email before your session and you can communicate soon. Feeling like you have to carry on is so understandable but you need to take care of yourself, in whatever ways you can. Hugs to you.

Thanks everyone. It helps a lot to be able to come here when I feel I have nowhere to turn.
My wonderful T emailed me back even though he's on holiday. It was a thoughtful and kind response too and it was really good to hear from him. I see him on Wednesday so not too long to wait.
I feel a little calmer now though I think I am in shock.
Thanks again for the hugs and kind words

I am glad you heard from him.

Hello EM, so glad to hear your T got back to you. Mine did a similar thing this time last year, for a very similar reason (emergency admission for my mother, with a suspected regrowth of her brain tumour, from the 1980s). She even gave me an appointment with her supervisor while she was on holiday. Please post on here whenever you need to, this community is such a blessing. Hope you and your relative are doing well.

Oh Echos
That sounds incredibly traumatic. I am really glad your t responded and recognised that you needed a reply.
If there is anyway we can help, well I am here all night. Please remember that even though this is similar to the last medical incident it's not the same and hopefully won't have the same outcome. I know it's hard but please remember to stay in the present and not let the past overwhelm you

Thank you mona, actually my T pointed out the differences between the two situations too. It's difficult not to focus on the similarities. I'm trying not to think of the horrible memory too much.

Hugs...I'm sorry you had to go through this, but glad the relative is OK and that your T got back to you...hope you're doing OK and that you're able to get some sleep.

really glad he wrote you an email response Echos. hugs if you want them

So glad he wrote back and hope everyone is doing better

I'm sorry you're going through this echos. And am glad your t responded.

Thank you all. I think a good night sleep has helped everyone. I feel a bit calmer today and it's only a few days till my T is back so I'm hopeful he can help me through the traumatic side of this. The medical side might be another matter but we'll have to see.
It's comforting to know I can turn to you guys at times like this

Thinking of you and sending good thoughts, prayers and hugs