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Old Sep 14, 2016, 07:49 AM
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Iīve seen my T for more than half a year now and although the sessions go well, I feel uplifted by them I donīt feel better. I have the PDD NOS diagnosis, I got that a year ago but had never myself suspected such a diagnosis and in the diagnosis papers they donīt specify my actual difficulties.

I have studied on university and also worked without problem, I didnīt need assistance. Now I also got depression and anxiety but I have though managed to study, to be at school, work with others in groups. I have a couple of friends I sometimes see but I often feel lonely.

My T sees me as insightful and we talk about deeper issues but although all of this I donīt feel better. I have tried antidepressants but they donīt help. I just keep feeling bad, lonely, tired, I donīt see how I can get a life worth living with a job, a relationship and so on. Itīs not just because of depression I feel like this, several days I even donīt feel depressed.

I donīt want to be too open about this to my T, that I feel bad even after many months of therapy as my T works within public health care where everything is about economy and "choosing" patients to treat.

Anyone who has felt like this or have any advice?
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Old Sep 14, 2016, 08:04 AM
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I feel almost exactly like this, and I understand what you mean so you're not alone in this.
I'm not very good at giving advice, so I'll tell you what I decided to do instead: change therapist. If it doesn't work after 6 months then it's probably just not a good match - especially if you yourself can't be too open with him. It's not anyone's fault, sometimes it just goes like this.
Unfortunately I'm still looking for the next one, so I can't tell you if it worked or not. But this is what I'd do in your place, anyway - make your own decision

And don't give up
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Old Sep 14, 2016, 08:13 AM
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Thanks. Thatīs not what I mean Iīm afraid, that Iīm thinking of switching therapist. As the PDD NOS isnīt treatable in that sense you donīt have the diagnosis more it wonīt be helpful switching therapists, the T I have at the moment is the only way in to some kind of mental health care.

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I feel almost exactly like this, and I understand what you mean so you're not alone in this.
I'm not very good at giving advice, so I'll tell you what I decided to do instead: change therapist. If it doesn't work after 6 months then it's probably just not a good match - especially if you yourself can't be too open with him. It's not anyone's fault, sometimes it just goes like this.
Unfortunately I'm still looking for the next one, so I can't tell you if it worked or not. But this is what I'd do in your place, anyway - make your own decision

And don't give up
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Old Sep 14, 2016, 09:13 AM
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Oh i'm sorry, I'm guilty of ignorance about PDD NOS.

Well, in that case is more complicated, yeah. The only thing that comes to my mind is to try to talk with T about this. I know you mentioned that you don't want to talk about it.. but that's the only advice I have right now. I wish I had a better one..
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Old Sep 14, 2016, 04:10 PM
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I can talk to my T about this but not connected to the therapy itself as if they get the notion that I feel therapy isnīt working as I want it to they may start wanting me to go somewhere else. Also, I donīt think the fault lies within how the therapy is conducted but more about how my life is and that itīs hard to solve everything that is connected. For example I donīt have the strength to work full time and even if I would want to work (which one of my goal is) I donīt have the faith in myself to look for a job.

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Oh i'm sorry, I'm guilty of ignorance about PDD NOS.

Well, in that case is more complicated, yeah. The only thing that comes to my mind is to try to talk with T about this. I know you mentioned that you don't want to talk about it.. but that's the only advice I have right now. I wish I had a better one..
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Old Sep 14, 2016, 07:58 PM
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Maybe get a psychologist that specializes in autism? You say PDD is not curable, but you can still work with your issues and get better!
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Old Sep 15, 2016, 03:10 PM
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Thanks. My t works with patients who have more "severe" forms of autism and she has also given therapy to several clients with the diagnosis that was former called Aspergers. The hard thing is to know whatīs what, I mean what is my depression, what is anxiety, what depends on the PDD and so on. Itīs almost impossible to identify all factors and then find a cure or certain steps ahead.

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Maybe get a psychologist that specializes in autism? You say PDD is not curable, but you can still work with your issues and get better!
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Old Sep 16, 2016, 07:55 AM
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I wish that my symptoms could be identified and categorized, but they can't. I find that little changes can add up and make others easier, and that it doesn't have to be all or nothing. Work on "small talk" would be very helpful to achieving the goals of working and finding friends.

Do you trust her to do what is right for you?
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Old Sep 16, 2016, 08:31 AM
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I can relate. I have no diagnosis but suspect on the spectrum. My daughter was dx with Aspergers 10 years ago and is just like me, and my dad is the quintessential Aspie. For me, I have yet to find an anti-depressant that relieves the deep existential grief I feel, and the residual trauma from childhood. I am also quite lonely and despite being smart I just don't fit anywhere. I feel intuitively that self-acceptance and self-love needs to be the answer, but they are such foreign concepts for a person who has spent their whole life beating themselves up for being a weirdo. Being high-functioning is hard because it's so invisible, and you just end up feeling like an alien. No advice, but I wanted to say that I understand some of what you are going through.
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Old Sep 16, 2016, 08:33 PM
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Wow runlola, well said.
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Old Sep 18, 2016, 08:11 AM
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Thanks. Yes, I agree that changes are often small and you have to be patient to find out what works or not. As my T has worked with a lot of different clients, also on the spectrum, I more or less trust her that she does whatīs right for me. I absolutely donīt think she does anything to make me feel worse but at though I sometimes feel itīs more like an ordinary chat than therapy.

But I think that has to do with that she doesnīt want to put pressure on me as several other things in my life are pressuring me. She has also said that as therapy is within psychiatric care (although no inpatients) she also thinks therapy canīt be as demanding as if I saw her at a private practice where patients generally have less severe diagnoses.

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I wish that my symptoms could be identified and categorized, but they can't. I find that little changes can add up and make others easier, and that it doesn't have to be all or nothing. Work on "small talk" would be very helpful to achieving the goals of working and finding friends.

Do you trust her to do what is right for you?
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Old Sep 18, 2016, 08:21 AM
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Thanks for sharing. I agree itīs hard to know whatīs what and to find a medication that suits you. Have you tried therapy? I think that self love and self acceptance is something you can be better at if you find the right therapist who supports you and help you understand what you have went through and why. For me, therapy is both rewarding and sometimes a bit draining and I also become a bit worried sometimes that no actual changes will be made. But Iīm not sure about that, if itīs me who feels that way, if it just takes longer or if therapy isnīt effective enough.

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I can relate. I have no diagnosis but suspect on the spectrum. My daughter was dx with Aspergers 10 years ago and is just like me, and my dad is the quintessential Aspie. For me, I have yet to find an anti-depressant that relieves the deep existential grief I feel, and the residual trauma from childhood. I am also quite lonely and despite being smart I just don't fit anywhere. I feel intuitively that self-acceptance and self-love needs to be the answer, but they are such foreign concepts for a person who has spent their whole life beating themselves up for being a weirdo. Being high-functioning is hard because it's so invisible, and you just end up feeling like an alien. No advice, but I wanted to say that I understand some of what you are going through.
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