Let Your Therapist See Your Posts?

I'm sorry mona, but your Ts behavior is disturbing. It also disturbs me that you're accepting it. I'm not trying to be mean... but it is troubling.

I know you are not trying to be mean and we all have our opinions. I guess my attachment to her is very very strong and that will win every time.

I can understand you feelings of attachment winning every time. Sometimes I try really hard to do something my counselor asks me to do, because I feel the need to be compliant and do what I'm told. I'm happy to say, that it's gotten better as I've become stronger. He has actually coached me through it and commended me when I told him that I couldn't do something he ask of me.

That being said, I'm very thankful that he is supportive of the forum. There is no one else that I can talk to about what I'm walking through except my counselor and here on PC. The encouragement and validation I have found here has been a life line to me. I would want to believe that I have become strong enough and encouraged enough here, that if he was not supportive it wouldn't make a difference to me.

I also understand the nervous laughing. I tend to do that myself in situations when emotions are too real.

I shared a post from the "Dear , there's something I need to tell you but don't know how" thread. I couldn't make myself say it out loud so I got the thing up on my phone and just handed it to him. He never asked any more about the forum. I really hope he's never looked me up

I've thought about this a lot. It sometimes irritates me when counselors just tell me that they want me to do something. My first reaction is, "you're going to have to give me a rational reason to do so, and 'because I suggested it' isn't a rational reason."

And if a therapist really just thinks he/she can just say, "you should do x", I'm equally justified in saying, "no I shouldn't"

It would be beneficial if I had a T and she would see my posts. However, it would also be very uncomfortable and embarrassing which is what I was avoiding in session. Now that I know how she practices I'm glad Ive never shared my thoughts. I would've been kicking myself for doing so.