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I can't sleep despite being exhausted. I keep crying and I'm not really sure why. Also feeling scared and I don't know why. 8 more sleeps until I see T again. I don't know why I'm so eager to see her because I feel worse now than I did when I started seeing her a year ago.
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Maybe it's because suppressed feelings can surface in therapy. I just returned after a three week break and had some of those feelings. And I have felt worse before I felt better. I've learned to just go with the feelings more. I think your T sounds like a good one.
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I just really worry I'm going be this way forever and if that is the case I don't really see the point in existing. I think that is what scares me the most.
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I feel this way too right now.
Opening up old wounds, feeling stuff I've suppressed for ages....it's pretty awful. I'm trusting my t that it's an investment in long term growth and stAbility. Wishing you peace. |
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I understand what you are experiencing. It's a brutal experience.
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What do you think I should do about it (other than tell T how I'm feeling when I see her)? I really love my T and want to continue working with her. In the weeks before the break we got into some deeper stuff which brought up a lot of intense feelings that I never knew I had. Also, over this break a whole bunch of family drama has been going on which has been very stressful/upsetting/triggering. T and I really couldn't have predicted the kind of drama that occurred. With that in mind I don't know if I could call this a treatment failure but obviously something isn't working.
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Sorry to be annoying but does anyone have some ideas on what I should do about this situation if it is treatment failure?
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It's not necessarily treatment failure- I go through times when I feel upset and oreoccupied because therapy has basically taken a layer of skin off something that's a bit tender, but therapy is supposed to do that. And you've a lot going on just now and have just got through the holiday season. We all post from a place of personal experience and bias with some folk having less positive experiences than others.
It would be useful to talk to your T about your deeming worse as things go on and they will be able to help you unpick that. If you think there's something your T does that drives you feeling worse, it's worth feeding that back. In the meantime maybe do some relaxation exercises or journaling to help soothe yourself. |
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I try not to give advice. Was just making an observation based on what you said, which implied that therapy was making you feel worse. By most objective measures, feeling worse after a year of (presumably weekly) sessions constitutes failure. It's common in therapy-land to spin this various ways, but feeling worse kinda speaks for itself. Since that is rarely said, thought it might be useful to point out. I have family and relationship turmoil also, so i get that, and if therapy is causing ANY distress on top of that, not good in my experience. Hope it gets better for you.
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It sounds like things were churned up and the break churned more up. I would share with T your concern about feeling worse and see hat you guys can come up with together. It may be you are having a rough patch or it may be you need something about your therapy to change. But you can raise it and address it.
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I personally think it's because all your defense mechanisms dissolve in psychoanalytic therapy.
But, ideally, a better state of mind awaits someday. Blocking the bad blocks out some of the good too. Best to re-structure your mental functioning while you're young and most resilient. |
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I agree with you about pretty much everything. I will see what T has to say about it all and hopefully we can figure out a solution to handling these types of things better in the future. |
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I am holding out for that "better state of mind someday". That is the ultimate goal I guess. From what I understand about psychoanalytic therapy it is normal to feel worse for a short period when letting down your defenses and feeling vulnerable so hopefully this just a rough patch that will pass soon. |
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