T's request

We talked about resentment today. The end of it all was a request to hold on to my resentment for the next session. Specifically my resentment towards T. (We talked about last session and how she had been unempathic. Her comment about feelings being wrong was like an unexpected, slap in the face. She said it was impulsive and badly phrased and apologized.) But really, I don't let myself feel bad feelings toward T. I know I have some - I have felt critical of her before, but I don't hang on to it. I hide it from myself and forget about it. . I think because she’s the authority figure I give her the right to be right and unquestioned to a degree. So that deflates any conflict/anger that I might have - I just say to myself, she must be right. Not that I don't voice disagreements - but I don't usually push. Hmmm.

hmmmmm... your T's response to you... would have pushed my "buttons" in a major way.. and I would have "shut down" completely... sounds like a T that I once had.. and just didn't work for me..so strongly disliked her - I couldn't work with her..

so sorry... we all love our "T"'s... don't we..

it is interesting...today... I pushed back at my T's ahhh "right" to be always "right".... don't do that ever.. but I was highly offended by what he said..
he.. didn't "see" things my way.. even after the offence was noted... so I'm not sure... methinks.. I am angry enough to "kick him to the curb"...

and I also say.... hmmmmmmmmmm

ah! who can take this process anymore!