It's now 11 PM and I did not call him today.

Only problem is I'm sort of feeling like a mess right now. Under normal circumstances I would seriously consider calling and leaving a message so that he can call me back tomorrow.

But this whole absence thing has %#@&#! me up. I don't feel like I can call. For some reason I feel weird about just leaving him a message saying "I'm having bad thoughts, etc, etc, etc...." And then he calls back tomorrow and I tell him about it... NO. Nonononono. And I feel kinda bad, like he just got back so I shouldn't bombard him with my %#@&#!. And then there's this little part of me that is saying..... what's the point of calling? There is no point.

BLAH. DIsconnected now.

[MissCharlotte]

((((((((Pinksoil)))))))))

Take my advice and call. He would not have changed his message if he didn't want the calls now.

My whole deal was about asking for what you need. I know T would want you to call -- you have told us that he said you should. The point is to call T when you feel like you do. Yes, he exists still and yes, you two are in therapy togethe rstill.

Please call him right now. It's okay. Really.

And take gentle care. Be good to yourself.

((((safehugs))))

So far I haven't called. There is something that's keeping me from calling; I don't know what. Session is on Friday.

[lauren_helene]

Try and hold off Pink. You can do this. You'll feel better for it. When I do this, it helps me get some control back of my emotions.